just_muse_me | 21.6.2. Secret Messages

[agentsullivan]

21.6.2. TEN secret messages to people you know1. I hope I haven't screwed you up before you even get a chance

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[isabelowens]

I give up... I don't which one's me. I'd like to phone a friend.

[agentsullivan]

They're supposed to be secret.

[isabelowens]

So I can't even get a clue? Bitch... And here I was ready to celebrate your engagement with mountains of chocolate. I'll eat it all myself.

[agentsullivan]

Yeah, it might be a bit premature celebrations. I wouldn't be surprised if he calls it off. Or if I end up in the slammer for first degree murder. I'll make it creative, go down with style.

[isabelowens]

Mark?

[agentsullivan]

Yeah. He turns me into Bitchzilla. And he didn't call on his dinner break. Andrew, not Mark.

[isabelowens]

Did he see Mark? Maybe he's still trying to work out what happened... Or he's scared that he's about to lose you and Jamie. Why don't you call him?

[agentsullivan]

Mark showed up right when Andrew was leaving for work. Mark copped an eyeful of us being all domestic and he didn't even know. James hadn't told him I was seeing someone. Andrew's eyes when he looked at Mark... Iz, I've never seen them that cold. He promised he would call, but he didn't. I tried, but his phone is switched off.

I did my Hulk Chick thing with Mark, but all I can think about is Andrew. And I was maybe admittedly too harsh on Mark, but it's like in Gremlins when they throw the water on them. That's me when I see Mark.

[isabelowens]

I have seen you like that, remember? I'm sorry, Al. It sucks it went down like that, but you can't blame Andrew for being cold to Mark. You're the woman he loves, and Mark hurt you something bad. Andrew probably wants to kill the guy for the damage he's done.

Want me to come over to watch Sunshine, and you can just go see Andrew?

[agentsullivan]

I know, and I try to reassure him, but it upsets him. He's not a vindictive knob stick like Mark. But Mark said those words, Iz. He said them and I feel sick now because I feel guilty. But still, head goes back to Andy because I don't want Mark to hurt him.

Are you sure? You're not busy?

[isabelowens]

Don't feel guilty. I'm sorry, but Mark doesn't get to come late to this party. He needs to know that the world didn't stop while he was licking his wounds. Just like it didn't stop for me, but before you start comparing - I'm not Sunshine's dad, not am I trying to take her away, or anything.

I've always got time for my goddaughter. Want me there, or do you want to drop her off?

[agentsullivan]

I told him that. I think. Somewhere amongst all the expletives, I'm sure it came out somewhere because I was thinking it. He says he wants to get to know her. And I think Andy hasn't called because he expected it, even if he wasn't there to hear it.

What's easier?

[isabelowens]

Maybe he's just wondering where he stands. Talking about Mark, and the whole custody thing is different to Mark actually being here and going through with it.

I'm not the one with the kid, sweetie. If it's hard work to pack up all her crap, I'll just get my ass to your place.

[agentsullivan]

I think he's going to stay. I got the feeling that was the intention now James is back. And I'm too angry and worried about Andrew to even think about going to talk to Jimbo or Mark right now.

Sure you aren't busy? Where's Mr Liverpool FC?

[isabelowens]

Then just sort out things with Andrew first. You're allowed to put your fiance before anyone else.

He's in Princeton with his brother. I miss him already, and he's only a state away. I'm pathetic.

[agentsullivan]

If I go crazy and end up in a padded cell, will you make sure I've got my cow slippers?

Is his brother okay? How are things going there, anyway? I have my head so far up my own arse, it feels like ages since I spoke to you.