I feel so insecure...
Well, today my cousin Rachelle called me to wish me a happy birthday. We are pretty close, she's like my older sister to me. We were always together growing up. Well, she was asking me if there is anyone that I like yet...and I was like...maaayyybbe. So I told her over the phone that I'm gay. God, I can't believe how hard it was to say to her. I guess it's harder when it comes to family. She is such an amazing person I love my cousin so much, so we had a good conversation and she started crying and just said that it didn't matter to her, and that she is so proud of me. It felt really good to know that nothing would change her opinion of me. So she came over to my house and took me back to hers. We just sat and talked for hours, and listened to music. It was great. God, it felt so great, but I still feel insecure sometimes. She was just saying that she is sure my family will take it well. And that she understands it's just part of who I am. And if people aren't willing to accept and respect that about me, then the only love a fraction of who I am. She really made me feel good. She's like your such a beautiful person Brandon, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. She's been through a lot in her life even though she's only 23. I really respect her a lot. So anyway I will stop blabbering. No one can ever understand how much I love that girl.