"she's a strict vegan but she drinks like a fish and does a ton of blow!"
Point behind my right eye, beside my temple, vibrates with intense frequency! A whining that reaches such a pitch, that I could emit a laser with a focused gaze.... And that is why I must drink only decaf from now on. I know it to be the caffeine now (or, the lack of it). The same reason why I had to drink a can of Coke everyday or I'd get a headache. Must wean self from caffeinated refreshments (withdrawal).
I came back from hanging out with Melanie tonight. She is broken! A (vain) little bird with a broken clavicle. I wonder if it's strange to feel strange at seeing a friend hurt. Was afraid I'd inadvertently cause her pain. Then I forgot and did! I think. I don't know if I actually took a good look at the site of injury. Anyway, friends ought not to get themselves hurt!
On the way home, it started to rain and bluster every which way. It was kinda fun. I was a little tentative walking because plant parts on the wet ground looked like worms, and I didn't want to step on innocent annelids. I'm no worm killer. Unless they're leeches. Those I can smite. Must smite before they bite.
We went to Oakland to see Dad Wednesday. He's still thin, and has crazy eyes! I can tell he's still restless. Although mysteriously vague, he seemed well enough and in a good mood. Dad thought I took up smoking and felt my back pocket, but it was just a pouch of Skittles. I told Mom I wanted to know our relatives -- Dad's mom and brothers in England, Mom's sister in Vietnam -- I have a hundred cousins maybe (or tens of them)! All of a sudden I feel this way. I want that feeling of instant kinship, that we're connected by blood! I want to start with the cousins I know and haven't seen in several years. Pretty sure we had a good time as kids, so we ought to have a good time hanging out now. It'd be hard though, since everyone's busy going about their own lives. And honestly, in our immediate family at least, I think we've estranged ourselves out of shame. The never-do-wells, the losers unchanged. Mom would probably say that it was some other reason. Either way, I must spruce myself up for a more impressive impact before I reacquaint myself with and meet relatives. That means learning a trade(s) and getting a job. Yes! Right now! Do it! Hurry up! (Win LOTTO faster)