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So another Valentine's Day has passed without anything of note. I think I'm entering another phase where I'm just sick of waiting for a girl to come around that I actually give a damn about. Well, there have been two here, but one went home and the other has a 5 year boyfriend. That long relationship mentality is a question I could devote a whole post to, but I'd rather not. And frankly, I haven't had a serious crush since Anne and I broke up. I've liked girls, but none possessed my forever-prized "spark". I could write a whole post on the "spark" too. These two could have been serious if their had been opportunity in the equation.
If anything I've gained a lot of confidence in myself over here. Flings and flirtations have been fun and plentiful. I really know myself better and how to play to my strengths. But it's also taught me that anything temporary is uninteresting. My heart does hold the reins to the rest of my desire. Without any electricity nothing functions. This summer camp and grad school are really opportunities to be exposed to completely fresh people. My goals are clear, my self trust is very healthy. I just need to be put into a game. A game that hasn't ended or been forfeited already. I just wanna spoil some girl.
If anything I've gained a lot of confidence in myself over here. Flings and flirtations have been fun and plentiful. I really know myself better and how to play to my strengths. But it's also taught me that anything temporary is uninteresting. My heart does hold the reins to the rest of my desire. Without any electricity nothing functions. This summer camp and grad school are really opportunities to be exposed to completely fresh people. My goals are clear, my self trust is very healthy. I just need to be put into a game. A game that hasn't ended or been forfeited already. I just wanna spoil some girl.