We Have A Map Of The Piano
There are times when I find myself wondering what I get all worked up about. Like when I get nervous, or anxious, or scared, or any other feeling like that. I wonder "why? why do I do this to myself?" I believe a lot of people do that though. Or so I assume. In my mind I tend to build things up until what was once a simple task is now a complex system of things I must do. I try to rehearse what I'm going to say and/or do in my head until I believe I have the perfect way of saying and/or doing something. Once the lights are on and the curtains open though, it's all gone. All my hard work and memorization is out the window and I'm there to ad lib everything. That's when nervousness kicks in, your voice trembles a bit and you're not sure what to say. If I knew where I was going with this I'd probably slow down and tell you. I have this friend, a new friend actually, who has given me some of the most insightful advice I've heard in a long time. The other day she told me, "there's no use crying over spilled milk." I know we've all heard that saying hundreds of times, but have you ever really thought about it. The way she said it to me, there was so much belief in her voice, as though that saying, that idea, was the only thing you needed in life. I felt as though some great wisdom was passed onto me when she said that to me. What it all comes down to (this is completely changing topics) is outlook. Your outlook is what decides everything. If you wake up tomorrow morning and see an overcast sky and think, "man, today is completely going to suck," then it will end up sucking. You implant that notion into your mind which then influences your thoughts. Though I suppose something good could happen to change your outlook. In my mind though the opposite is just as bad. If you wake up thinking it will be an amazing day, you may end up disappointed in the end. In my opinion it's best to wake up neutral. Don't jump to a conclusion based on what you see after regaining consciouness. Decide how good or bad the day was when it's over. When you're laying in bed trying to go to sleep is when you can really say whether you had a bad day or a great day. It's the same with people. You can't meet someone once and immediately think they are a bad or good person. You must get to know them before you can fully judge. This is all things you've heard before, but I'm rambling and if you're still reading at this point then it's your own fault. You could've stopped and you didn't. A point you ask? Does this entry have a point? Look at what is above this, obviously there is no point. Well, I suppose there is a point I'm trying to make here. That point is, there is no use crying over spilled milk. You just need to clean it up and continue on. Because it is not the end of the world if something bad happens. It's another experience, another outlook, another judgement. It's all connected in a skewed logic sort of way.