If that's the way it is, then that's the way it is
Blue Light by Bloc Party has been my favorite song as of late. I don't know why really, I just love it. Especially the lyric I used for the title of this entry and in my new icon. Makes me think.
It's five in the morning right now. The sky is just starting to turn light. Dan's been asleep for about a half hour and I've been sitting here thinking about things. So my parents went out of town this weekend. It's been great being by myself, but at the same time it's made me realize some stuff. My loneliness has sort of come back. I'm still not completely sure why. Dan and I sat at the park at around one this morning smoking cigarettes on the swings. We had a nice serious talk like we always have that early when we go for walks. At one point Dan said he wished everything would just fall into place in life. Almost without thinking I responded that at some point everything does fall into place. I've had some time to think about it now and I believe that to be true. I feel like right now to many things are up in the air in my life. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by it all. Though now I believe that even though all this stuff is up in the air, it will eventually all fall in place. It may not fall into place exactly where I want it to, but it will all get figured out and solved. That thought actually makes me feel better. It may take a while for things to find their place, but that's ok. Life takes a while. It's 5:20 now and the sky is even lighter. I'm afriad that I'm going to miss opportunities in life due to my own stupidity and insecurities. I just fear that something important is going to slip away because of my idiocy. It's now 5:30 and the sky is almost completely lit. I think I'll finish watching the sunrise and then get a few hours of sleep.
There is no real point to this entry.
Just more of my inane rambling.
It's five in the morning right now. The sky is just starting to turn light. Dan's been asleep for about a half hour and I've been sitting here thinking about things. So my parents went out of town this weekend. It's been great being by myself, but at the same time it's made me realize some stuff. My loneliness has sort of come back. I'm still not completely sure why. Dan and I sat at the park at around one this morning smoking cigarettes on the swings. We had a nice serious talk like we always have that early when we go for walks. At one point Dan said he wished everything would just fall into place in life. Almost without thinking I responded that at some point everything does fall into place. I've had some time to think about it now and I believe that to be true. I feel like right now to many things are up in the air in my life. I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by it all. Though now I believe that even though all this stuff is up in the air, it will eventually all fall in place. It may not fall into place exactly where I want it to, but it will all get figured out and solved. That thought actually makes me feel better. It may take a while for things to find their place, but that's ok. Life takes a while. It's 5:20 now and the sky is even lighter. I'm afriad that I'm going to miss opportunities in life due to my own stupidity and insecurities. I just fear that something important is going to slip away because of my idiocy. It's now 5:30 and the sky is almost completely lit. I think I'll finish watching the sunrise and then get a few hours of sleep.
There is no real point to this entry.
Just more of my inane rambling.