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Let me just say that it feels so good to be back home, if only for a few days. Then it's off to Scranton for a couple weeks, before I come back to Buffalo and get a job and make some money for the summer.
I'm still not sure if I will be able to go back to Albany this summer, but I don't really care. Actually, I do, but I'm trying not to think about it. Right now, I'm just enjoying the lack of stress, and trying to get every single person I know to go see BARE with me again, hehe.
It's kinda like an inside joke now; everytime I open my mouth, someone expects something BARE-related to come out of it. Hell, if I say "Guess what!" they say "He hugged you!." I suppose I did give them a reason to start doing that though...
I can't wait until next semester (if I am going back). To make up for my lack of theatre classes this past semester (since I was concentrating on my other major: Japanese) I'm taking 3 theatre classes: Play Analysis, Development of Theatre and Drama I, and Early Shakespeare.
I might take 201 too, which is a performance lab, I have to check the schedule and email Adam about it. I wasn't going to because I didn't want to be loaded down with too much work (Play Analysis is writing intensive, and all together I have 17 credits already, plus I'll be working at Hallmark part-time, plus I was planning another part-time job) and it really is a lot of work for only 1 credit. At the same time though, it is mandatory that we take at least 2 credits of 201, and 2 of 202, so that's 4 semester's worth, and I wanted to study abroad my junior year, which means I would HAVE to take it this next semester then.
::sigh:: Decisions, decisions... Truth is I want to do it. Not having done anything in the theatre this past semester has been driving me nuts. But like I said, I didn't want to be loaded down. Don't want to slip again like I did this past semester. Then again, as long as I take my medication, and budget my time wisely, perhaps I can do it all.
Eh, I'll email Adam later about it. Hell, still don't know if I *AM* going back yet.
I think that's why I made such a big deal out of going to see BARE. Yes, it was a spectacular show. Yes, I did get to talk to Aaron. But most of all, I think it reminded me of why I am a theatre major in the first place: because nothing makes me happier and inspires me more than the theatre, and all aspects of it. Really, I'd probably be just as happy acting as I would being run crew, or a designer. BARE kind of reminded me of the joy of it all that I had forgotten as I struggled within myself this past semester. It inspired me almost to start taking the steps I need to take to get on with the rest of my life.
And then there's the fact that I made the trip by myself. Those who know me well know just how big of a deal that was for me. My mother has me so screwed up, and taking that trip was a huge step towards fully breaking away from my past, and moving on to a healthier future. Having made that trip gives me hope that I will be able to overcome all my difficulties in trying to get rid of all that my mother brainwashed in me, and really, just thinking that there's a chance that I could be okay has made me happier than I have been in a long time.
So if Aaron or anyone else from the cast of BARE is reading this (yeah, I know they're not, but just humor me :P) I just wanted to thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Hmm, and this started out as a light-hearted post....
I'm still not sure if I will be able to go back to Albany this summer, but I don't really care. Actually, I do, but I'm trying not to think about it. Right now, I'm just enjoying the lack of stress, and trying to get every single person I know to go see BARE with me again, hehe.
It's kinda like an inside joke now; everytime I open my mouth, someone expects something BARE-related to come out of it. Hell, if I say "Guess what!" they say "He hugged you!." I suppose I did give them a reason to start doing that though...
I can't wait until next semester (if I am going back). To make up for my lack of theatre classes this past semester (since I was concentrating on my other major: Japanese) I'm taking 3 theatre classes: Play Analysis, Development of Theatre and Drama I, and Early Shakespeare.
I might take 201 too, which is a performance lab, I have to check the schedule and email Adam about it. I wasn't going to because I didn't want to be loaded down with too much work (Play Analysis is writing intensive, and all together I have 17 credits already, plus I'll be working at Hallmark part-time, plus I was planning another part-time job) and it really is a lot of work for only 1 credit. At the same time though, it is mandatory that we take at least 2 credits of 201, and 2 of 202, so that's 4 semester's worth, and I wanted to study abroad my junior year, which means I would HAVE to take it this next semester then.
::sigh:: Decisions, decisions... Truth is I want to do it. Not having done anything in the theatre this past semester has been driving me nuts. But like I said, I didn't want to be loaded down. Don't want to slip again like I did this past semester. Then again, as long as I take my medication, and budget my time wisely, perhaps I can do it all.
Eh, I'll email Adam later about it. Hell, still don't know if I *AM* going back yet.
I think that's why I made such a big deal out of going to see BARE. Yes, it was a spectacular show. Yes, I did get to talk to Aaron. But most of all, I think it reminded me of why I am a theatre major in the first place: because nothing makes me happier and inspires me more than the theatre, and all aspects of it. Really, I'd probably be just as happy acting as I would being run crew, or a designer. BARE kind of reminded me of the joy of it all that I had forgotten as I struggled within myself this past semester. It inspired me almost to start taking the steps I need to take to get on with the rest of my life.
And then there's the fact that I made the trip by myself. Those who know me well know just how big of a deal that was for me. My mother has me so screwed up, and taking that trip was a huge step towards fully breaking away from my past, and moving on to a healthier future. Having made that trip gives me hope that I will be able to overcome all my difficulties in trying to get rid of all that my mother brainwashed in me, and really, just thinking that there's a chance that I could be okay has made me happier than I have been in a long time.
So if Aaron or anyone else from the cast of BARE is reading this (yeah, I know they're not, but just humor me :P) I just wanted to thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Hmm, and this started out as a light-hearted post....