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okay now i just really need to vent. please pay no attention to the following bitchiness.
so lately, it seems like everything is fucked up in every aspect of my life: friends, family, work, and not so much school but a little bit.
Friends: so heres the deal. about 3/4 of my friends all hate each other. pretty much every little section of my friends is in some kind of fight or the other, or they just dont like people. For example. My one friend just broke up with her boyfriend who is also my friend. Our whole little group is like completely split apart guys versus girls for the most part. i was really pissed at him for what he did to her, but like now, all that anger just kind of disappeared. i don't know why, but its like i dont even care anymore and i feel so horrible like i feel like im betraying my friend, but she doesnt really care any more either. i just want it to go back to the way that it was before, when we could all hang out and it was really great.
a group of my other friends has been fighting for a year now. they both really piss me off. they are getting to the point where i don't even want to be around them anymore. i just really cant say anymore cause it makes me mad and its so stupid and idiotic that its just alskdhaklshd.
i really dont even want to go on with the venting. it just depresses me. i dont know whats wrong with me but i supress my feelings really bad. like you couldnt tell my knowing me all the shit that goes on in my life that if i tried to deal with it i'd probably go insane or something. I've never told anyone the depths of that shit in my life, and i wonder if i ever will. people just stereotype me saying im just a little rich girl wanting attention and being all "emo" or whatever. ya okay let me tell you. first of all im NOT rich. yea i have a big house i wont deny it, but no one knows why we have it. no one knows what goes on inside the walls. man if the walls could talk...
so lately, it seems like everything is fucked up in every aspect of my life: friends, family, work, and not so much school but a little bit.
Friends: so heres the deal. about 3/4 of my friends all hate each other. pretty much every little section of my friends is in some kind of fight or the other, or they just dont like people. For example. My one friend just broke up with her boyfriend who is also my friend. Our whole little group is like completely split apart guys versus girls for the most part. i was really pissed at him for what he did to her, but like now, all that anger just kind of disappeared. i don't know why, but its like i dont even care anymore and i feel so horrible like i feel like im betraying my friend, but she doesnt really care any more either. i just want it to go back to the way that it was before, when we could all hang out and it was really great.
a group of my other friends has been fighting for a year now. they both really piss me off. they are getting to the point where i don't even want to be around them anymore. i just really cant say anymore cause it makes me mad and its so stupid and idiotic that its just alskdhaklshd.
i really dont even want to go on with the venting. it just depresses me. i dont know whats wrong with me but i supress my feelings really bad. like you couldnt tell my knowing me all the shit that goes on in my life that if i tried to deal with it i'd probably go insane or something. I've never told anyone the depths of that shit in my life, and i wonder if i ever will. people just stereotype me saying im just a little rich girl wanting attention and being all "emo" or whatever. ya okay let me tell you. first of all im NOT rich. yea i have a big house i wont deny it, but no one knows why we have it. no one knows what goes on inside the walls. man if the walls could talk...