It's been a while
Wow, life just got crazy these past few weeks. I am officially done with summer school. I got a B which I'm not so happy about but whatever. I turned in my financial aid documents and signed up for more classes. I will be walking away with 2 AAs next spring and then I am moving on to a UC. I'm thinking about going to Santa Cruz to major in film and english but i'm not sure i can afford it. I'm applying to berkeley next month and chico state. I'll see where I get accepted. I think I pretty much have my choice in schools because I have a high GPA. It all comes down to money. Hopefully I get some scholarships. I'm pretty stressed out right now.
i feel kind of stuck. everything seems to be working against me. i know it will pass so i'm just waiting to see what happens but it still makes me feel like shit.
As annoying as greg is, I am happy i have him to turn to when life gets too crazy at home. I called him a couple days ago and cried and cried and then he invited me over. It was a nice break to get away from the family and I like going over there because he loves Nahla and lets me bring her. She gets so excited when I tell her we are going to see daddy. It's really cute. I've been stressed out about money and going away to a university. my parents aren't being supportive at all which is hurting me deeply. Also, I don't really want to move away from the kids. I want to be able to see them all the time. growing up sucks. I'm trying to stay positive though. If i were younger I think I would have handled this stress so much differently. I would have acted like my life was over. I feel myself growing up and into a different person and I'm starting to feel disconnected from my younger self. It's so strange and kind of scary in a way.
Maybe since school is out I can start seeing friends again. Andrea is coming home from UCSD and I am super excited. Tomorrow is Jacqi's birthday and I can't wait to see her. I also got Rikki a bday present and I need to meet up with her soon. I feel bad because I think she's mad at me for not going to her birthday but I didn't get the invite until it was too late because I didn't have reception at greg's. Hopefully she will wanna see me soon.
So a couple weeks ago my mom went to New York to visit my uncle who is a senior scholar at the Levvy institute (Bard). While she was gone I had to make all of my brother's meals, feed and take care of 4 dogs, clean the house constantly and my mom's dog got poop stuck in his butt hairs and I had to give him a bath and scrub his rear. My sister thought since my mom wasn't here that she could sleep here with the kids. All this while I was taking a summer class which was fast paced. I couldn't leave the house and my brother cussed me out several times because I made him go to the grocery store with me because my mom left the house with no food, toilet paper or dish washing soap. It was a crazy couple of weeks. I feel like I can finally catch my breath. It feels nice to have the time to update. It's getting late though so I should probably go. goodnight LJ.
i feel kind of stuck. everything seems to be working against me. i know it will pass so i'm just waiting to see what happens but it still makes me feel like shit.
As annoying as greg is, I am happy i have him to turn to when life gets too crazy at home. I called him a couple days ago and cried and cried and then he invited me over. It was a nice break to get away from the family and I like going over there because he loves Nahla and lets me bring her. She gets so excited when I tell her we are going to see daddy. It's really cute. I've been stressed out about money and going away to a university. my parents aren't being supportive at all which is hurting me deeply. Also, I don't really want to move away from the kids. I want to be able to see them all the time. growing up sucks. I'm trying to stay positive though. If i were younger I think I would have handled this stress so much differently. I would have acted like my life was over. I feel myself growing up and into a different person and I'm starting to feel disconnected from my younger self. It's so strange and kind of scary in a way.
Maybe since school is out I can start seeing friends again. Andrea is coming home from UCSD and I am super excited. Tomorrow is Jacqi's birthday and I can't wait to see her. I also got Rikki a bday present and I need to meet up with her soon. I feel bad because I think she's mad at me for not going to her birthday but I didn't get the invite until it was too late because I didn't have reception at greg's. Hopefully she will wanna see me soon.
So a couple weeks ago my mom went to New York to visit my uncle who is a senior scholar at the Levvy institute (Bard). While she was gone I had to make all of my brother's meals, feed and take care of 4 dogs, clean the house constantly and my mom's dog got poop stuck in his butt hairs and I had to give him a bath and scrub his rear. My sister thought since my mom wasn't here that she could sleep here with the kids. All this while I was taking a summer class which was fast paced. I couldn't leave the house and my brother cussed me out several times because I made him go to the grocery store with me because my mom left the house with no food, toilet paper or dish washing soap. It was a crazy couple of weeks. I feel like I can finally catch my breath. It feels nice to have the time to update. It's getting late though so I should probably go. goodnight LJ.