Thoughts of January
Im scared.
I dont want to go.
I have a full year to decide where I want to go on my leave/deployment leave days and its so hard where to go. Ga, fla, tx, norcal, or pa. I have family everywhere.
This decision is so hard.
Im going to be all dirty again for almost a full year. This is what I signed up for right? Sometimes I really wonder why.
Im basically married to the marine corps now.
If I cant do 20 than what was the point?
This is my life now. I gotta make this work. When people say "thank you for your service" I gladly take it because ive sacraficed my whole life to be a marine.
It is literally 24/7 work, work, work.
They finally said females can be in combat now. Nope not me. Haha.
This road is hard. I have so many responsibilities at work: mals mmp, squadron mmp, I take on all the inbound cards, remove components, replace etc etc.
Just got six aircraft ready for a det that left yesterday.
Other then that ive dogsat my sgts dog and im doing an art project for my ssgts kid haha.
Im sure they like me now at the shop.
I don't have much money bc I have to pay bills since im not in the barracks
And it's wearing on me. Very stressful.
I cant afford wireless so im outside in my car on my phone while it's raining out.
Everyone wants to drink tonight. Im not down.
It's rainy out, might go for a run at the gym on base and then watch Bettlejuice (I had to buy the movie myself thos time).
I had a nice early valentines though.
The sailor came to san diego, that was my present, and he got me a stuffy, which was a light brown dog i named benji. Very cuddle worthy, real talk.
Put a pic on my instagram.
I dont want to go.
I have a full year to decide where I want to go on my leave/deployment leave days and its so hard where to go. Ga, fla, tx, norcal, or pa. I have family everywhere.
This decision is so hard.
Im going to be all dirty again for almost a full year. This is what I signed up for right? Sometimes I really wonder why.
Im basically married to the marine corps now.
If I cant do 20 than what was the point?
This is my life now. I gotta make this work. When people say "thank you for your service" I gladly take it because ive sacraficed my whole life to be a marine.
It is literally 24/7 work, work, work.
They finally said females can be in combat now. Nope not me. Haha.
This road is hard. I have so many responsibilities at work: mals mmp, squadron mmp, I take on all the inbound cards, remove components, replace etc etc.
Just got six aircraft ready for a det that left yesterday.
Other then that ive dogsat my sgts dog and im doing an art project for my ssgts kid haha.
Im sure they like me now at the shop.
I don't have much money bc I have to pay bills since im not in the barracks
And it's wearing on me. Very stressful.
I cant afford wireless so im outside in my car on my phone while it's raining out.
Everyone wants to drink tonight. Im not down.
It's rainy out, might go for a run at the gym on base and then watch Bettlejuice (I had to buy the movie myself thos time).
I had a nice early valentines though.
The sailor came to san diego, that was my present, and he got me a stuffy, which was a light brown dog i named benji. Very cuddle worthy, real talk.
Put a pic on my instagram.