*facedesk*
I had planned on some updatage for CS and stuff today, but that was before my headspace collapsed in on itself shortly after I woke up this morning. I managed to talk very briefly about one issue with my dad (regarding job stuff, for the curious) while in public without bursting into tears, even though I could feel the sneaky little bastards poking at my eyes from within the recesses of their ducts. He seemed oddly...not supportive so much as non-combative. Like a "I can tell that this is not the time to try and dissuade you and may have tried later, however in light of the fact that you are actually doing this of your own volition and not because I've yelled at you about it, I'm just going to let the matter stand as-is and maybe even support you on it" kinda thing.
Anyway, all I leave you with is the lyrics to the song that finally broke me into itty bitty pieces this morning. Not the expected Casting Crowns song for this purpose, but I suppose it just happened to be a lot more applicable than the usual.
Prodigal
Written by Mark Hall and Performed by Casting Crowns
Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again
And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand
Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again
Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave
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Have draggies. Will travel.
Anyway, all I leave you with is the lyrics to the song that finally broke me into itty bitty pieces this morning. Not the expected Casting Crowns song for this purpose, but I suppose it just happened to be a lot more applicable than the usual.
Prodigal
Written by Mark Hall and Performed by Casting Crowns
Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again
And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand
Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again
Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave
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Have draggies. Will travel.