have you ever?
Have you ever had that moment when you just want to curl up in a ball and watch a sad movie and just cry cause you need to have a good cry? I definitly am feeling this right about now, and I cant find anything to cry about. I have to go to this dumb dinner and eat and I dont know what I am eating, prolly something gross. Then I want to come home and lay in bed and just watch a movie and cry, but I dont want to cry alone...I have hit that point when I want a guys arms around me holding me looking at me telling me that I am ok. He doesnt even have to say anything just keep wiping away the tears and letting me have my moment to myself would be stellar. Anymore it seems like when I leave for work I am in a crappy mood and it takes me about the first 15-20 minutes of working to get out of that mood and be happy again. Then I leave come home and the pissy attitude comes back. I cant wait until I can walk into a door and I dont have to worry about what attitude I have because I think I am going to be happy. In two weeks from today I will have graduated and I wont have to talk to people I dont want to anymore. I will call those that I want to talk to, yet I do know like a friend of mine that people will still check away messages and if you all know about this read this and wonder how I am doing instead of calling me. Bottom line...I just want to be treated like a real person and respected, and cant wait to leave this house.
Anyway in other news, my little took 3 babies and so now I am a grandbig x3. Last night was initiation which is an entire book so I wont put that in here...I have never wanted to leave a ceremony so bad in all of my life is all I have to say. I got to hang out with the family and have a good time, I learned some new things, and realized that I might just miss those kids a bit. Oh well, I am not moving but at the most a mile away and they are more than welcome to come over. I am going to miss Jessica a lot...she understands me to a point, and it is the point that I need understood. She is there for me and that is amazing cause well she has caught me crying a couple of times, and I dont like it when people do that...but what can you do. Oh well, i gotta go and do my hair and what not or else the little is going to yell at me for not being ready haha. Have a great evening everyone...love jess
Anyway in other news, my little took 3 babies and so now I am a grandbig x3. Last night was initiation which is an entire book so I wont put that in here...I have never wanted to leave a ceremony so bad in all of my life is all I have to say. I got to hang out with the family and have a good time, I learned some new things, and realized that I might just miss those kids a bit. Oh well, I am not moving but at the most a mile away and they are more than welcome to come over. I am going to miss Jessica a lot...she understands me to a point, and it is the point that I need understood. She is there for me and that is amazing cause well she has caught me crying a couple of times, and I dont like it when people do that...but what can you do. Oh well, i gotta go and do my hair and what not or else the little is going to yell at me for not being ready haha. Have a great evening everyone...love jess