Phil and his baby
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Well, I dunno how many of you read this or already know about what I'm going to talk about, but it's not a happy topic. For those of you who don't know, Phil is my bestfriend and an ex from a couple of years ago. His gf is pregnant.
Monday afternoon Phil had to take his gf into the hospital for bleeding. Well, while I was out with Brian, Phil called to tell me how things were going. She had already started to dilate and her amniotic sac was coming out! Not good!
I kept in contact with him yesterday. I called him after my doctor's appt. and he said that he hadn't seen his gf in an hour and a half cuz they took her away for an ultrasound that he, for some reason, wasn't allowed to go to. So, first off, I was mad cuz they didn't let him go to the ultrasound when it's his kid. Secondly, he should've thrown a hissy fit when she didn't come back and nobody had told him anything after an hour and a half!!! So anyway.
Lastnight he calls around 5 or 6 and they were having her lay upside down to try and get the sac to go back in. If she went into labor, they were going to give her magnesium sulfate to keep the labor from going on. Well, Phil just im'd me.
His gf started going into labor lastnight and they couldn't stop it. So now, they just have to wait. She's only 22 weeks along and that's too early for a baby to survive. So it's going to be alive for a couple hours after it's born and then it will die.
I called my mom to see if she can bring her car by during her lunch so me and Heather can have it today. I'm going to have to have the means to get to the hospital when that baby is born. Phil doesn't want me there right now cuz there are already a ton of people there. I feel pretty helpless and don't know how I'm going to be there for him. I'm probably going to be balling like a baby while he's balling like a baby. oh lord! This is just a tad bit awful.
I feel kinda responsible even though I know I'm not. For the first few months, I kept wishing she'd have a miscarriage. She was using her pregnancy to basically boss Phil around and all this stuff. He wanted to break up and she said "i'm pregnant", then there was all this stuff about me. She doesn't like the fact that we're best friends and several times Phil had said he was leaving her cuz he was in love with me. Which is just BAD for someone to say to their gf...hello!!! So, I dunno why he said that, but anyway. It made her not trust him when he was around me and then I caused a lot of stress in their relationship. So that kinda hindered her pregnancy a bit...all the stress.
Things were starting to cool off recently and she realized I wasn't a threat after talking to me about it, so...things were getting back to good again before this happened. The worst part is, at one point during this whole thing Heather and I were like "well, he didn't want a baby and he didn't want her to use that against him when he wanted to break up with her". Do you know how bad I felt when I thought that? Ugh...I felt like this horrible person. I still do. I mean, so I wished that she hadn't been pregnant cuz it caused Phil SO many problems in regards to his relationship with her, me, and what he wanted out of his life. Then, I caused stress in the relationship. Then, I thought that awful thing yesterday. Ugh...I really feel awful. And I'm sure Phil feels awful cuz he was just telling me last weekend how he felt trapped cuz of everything! Ugh...I hope he's not thinking that!
So, I did cry this morning when he told me she went into labor. He says he cried a lot lastnight when he found out, but he's doing better now. He just wants me to pray. It's odd to hear him say that since he's not the most religious person in the world. I was going to go down there, but he didn't want me there until the baby was actually born. This is going to be rough. I don't know if the baby will even be born tonight, but I'm going to have to be there whenever it is born and ...it's going to be ROUGH!!!
I wish I could do something to help or there was something I could say, but there's nothing I can do. And it's just weird timing. You know, I was just getting to feeling better, I started my resume, a nice guy started treating me to fun dates and great conversation, Chelsey was cool with me hanging out with Phil, etc., etc., etc. And then BAM! This hits hard. I was expecting to be relieved if something like this happened, but even as crazy as Chelsey is, I wouldn't wish this upon her. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. And Phil has to deal with it, so I have to deal with it. I don't really know what else to say. Phil asked me to pray for the baby and for them, so if any of you are religious, maybe you could pray too. Anyway. Thanks for reading my babble.
Love,
Alison
Well, I dunno how many of you read this or already know about what I'm going to talk about, but it's not a happy topic. For those of you who don't know, Phil is my bestfriend and an ex from a couple of years ago. His gf is pregnant.
Monday afternoon Phil had to take his gf into the hospital for bleeding. Well, while I was out with Brian, Phil called to tell me how things were going. She had already started to dilate and her amniotic sac was coming out! Not good!
I kept in contact with him yesterday. I called him after my doctor's appt. and he said that he hadn't seen his gf in an hour and a half cuz they took her away for an ultrasound that he, for some reason, wasn't allowed to go to. So, first off, I was mad cuz they didn't let him go to the ultrasound when it's his kid. Secondly, he should've thrown a hissy fit when she didn't come back and nobody had told him anything after an hour and a half!!! So anyway.
Lastnight he calls around 5 or 6 and they were having her lay upside down to try and get the sac to go back in. If she went into labor, they were going to give her magnesium sulfate to keep the labor from going on. Well, Phil just im'd me.
His gf started going into labor lastnight and they couldn't stop it. So now, they just have to wait. She's only 22 weeks along and that's too early for a baby to survive. So it's going to be alive for a couple hours after it's born and then it will die.
I called my mom to see if she can bring her car by during her lunch so me and Heather can have it today. I'm going to have to have the means to get to the hospital when that baby is born. Phil doesn't want me there right now cuz there are already a ton of people there. I feel pretty helpless and don't know how I'm going to be there for him. I'm probably going to be balling like a baby while he's balling like a baby. oh lord! This is just a tad bit awful.
I feel kinda responsible even though I know I'm not. For the first few months, I kept wishing she'd have a miscarriage. She was using her pregnancy to basically boss Phil around and all this stuff. He wanted to break up and she said "i'm pregnant", then there was all this stuff about me. She doesn't like the fact that we're best friends and several times Phil had said he was leaving her cuz he was in love with me. Which is just BAD for someone to say to their gf...hello!!! So, I dunno why he said that, but anyway. It made her not trust him when he was around me and then I caused a lot of stress in their relationship. So that kinda hindered her pregnancy a bit...all the stress.
Things were starting to cool off recently and she realized I wasn't a threat after talking to me about it, so...things were getting back to good again before this happened. The worst part is, at one point during this whole thing Heather and I were like "well, he didn't want a baby and he didn't want her to use that against him when he wanted to break up with her". Do you know how bad I felt when I thought that? Ugh...I felt like this horrible person. I still do. I mean, so I wished that she hadn't been pregnant cuz it caused Phil SO many problems in regards to his relationship with her, me, and what he wanted out of his life. Then, I caused stress in the relationship. Then, I thought that awful thing yesterday. Ugh...I really feel awful. And I'm sure Phil feels awful cuz he was just telling me last weekend how he felt trapped cuz of everything! Ugh...I hope he's not thinking that!
So, I did cry this morning when he told me she went into labor. He says he cried a lot lastnight when he found out, but he's doing better now. He just wants me to pray. It's odd to hear him say that since he's not the most religious person in the world. I was going to go down there, but he didn't want me there until the baby was actually born. This is going to be rough. I don't know if the baby will even be born tonight, but I'm going to have to be there whenever it is born and ...it's going to be ROUGH!!!
I wish I could do something to help or there was something I could say, but there's nothing I can do. And it's just weird timing. You know, I was just getting to feeling better, I started my resume, a nice guy started treating me to fun dates and great conversation, Chelsey was cool with me hanging out with Phil, etc., etc., etc. And then BAM! This hits hard. I was expecting to be relieved if something like this happened, but even as crazy as Chelsey is, I wouldn't wish this upon her. I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. And Phil has to deal with it, so I have to deal with it. I don't really know what else to say. Phil asked me to pray for the baby and for them, so if any of you are religious, maybe you could pray too. Anyway. Thanks for reading my babble.
Love,
Alison