One of the things I love and hate the most.
So another shows reached its end......It's hard to think that I've been watching Charmed for 8 whole years. Series Finales are always the sadest thing for me, while everything is always happy in the end, after all, who would want to watch a show for most of a decade only to have it have a bad ending.
I guess for me I've always used one or two TV shows to escape my life, and I've always been very empathic with fictional characters, I really get into it, I don't really know where I'm going with this. I guess I'm just really sad that there will never be anything new and that a part of my life is pretty much finished. I don't know, with University done, and everything I guess I'm just struggling to find myself now that there is basically nothing left planned for my future and now I don't know what to do.
I know I've been avoiding this for a long time, and it wasn't the best idea I know, but I'm still not sure I'm ready for it. I'm trying desperatly to find a job, but I know it's just another stall....the places I apply I know have nothing to do with anything I see myself doing, and have no career potential.
I've never been good with change........the sad thing is that I'm not happy, I've never really been happy, but I'm so afraid of change that I can't change anything.....I'd rather go back to university for another 4 years, or even back to highschool if I could, even if it meant I was miserable the whole time.....simply because anything else scares me so much I can't breath.....I need to go calm down right now tho......maybe I'll type more when I'm calmer.......
I guess for me I've always used one or two TV shows to escape my life, and I've always been very empathic with fictional characters, I really get into it, I don't really know where I'm going with this. I guess I'm just really sad that there will never be anything new and that a part of my life is pretty much finished. I don't know, with University done, and everything I guess I'm just struggling to find myself now that there is basically nothing left planned for my future and now I don't know what to do.
I know I've been avoiding this for a long time, and it wasn't the best idea I know, but I'm still not sure I'm ready for it. I'm trying desperatly to find a job, but I know it's just another stall....the places I apply I know have nothing to do with anything I see myself doing, and have no career potential.
I've never been good with change........the sad thing is that I'm not happy, I've never really been happy, but I'm so afraid of change that I can't change anything.....I'd rather go back to university for another 4 years, or even back to highschool if I could, even if it meant I was miserable the whole time.....simply because anything else scares me so much I can't breath.....I need to go calm down right now tho......maybe I'll type more when I'm calmer.......