Name change
Ok, so I guess I should explain the name change thing. I know it seems kind aout of right field, but there are reasons behind it.
First, i'd have to explain about my "father" although guy who got my mom pregnant is a much better description of what he was. I'm going to keep the details low, but basically he made my life a living hell, he mad my mom and me miserable for 20 some years, he's the man behind such kind words like "Take the boy, I don't want him" He's the kind of guy who when a wheel on my bike gave in and I crashed and came home crying laughed with his brothers about how I probably smashed the tire trying to get a new bike, even tho I was clearly all scratched up from wiping out. The kind of guy who responds to my mother leaving him by going outside and shooting our two dogs. The kind of guy who when I stopped by the house to pick up some of my things since I had to leave so suddenly accuses me of "stealing" for my mother. The kind of guy who threatened violence if he ever sees me again and the kind of guy who tells people he doesn't have a son. You get the idea.
What does he have to do with the name situation you might ask. Well this. First off, My last name, since it's the easiest. Stevens, it's his name, not mine. So why not just change the last name? Well first because the only reason I'm named Bradley is because he hated the name Devin, second, because it's been 24 years of Bradley Stevens. They can't really be separated, when I hear Brad, I remember both. Everyday, whenever anyone calls me or says hi or anything, it's like a jab with a knife.
So why now you ask? Well because over the past year I've had a nickname. Firefly, because of being an orientation leader at school. And I realized, when people call me that, I don't feel the pain, and I realized exactly how much the old name really hurts me.
I know changing my name wouldn't be easy on me, or anyone else whos known me, but I feel it's necessary, and althought I'm not entirely decided yet, I hope whatever I decide people support me.
Also, because I'm 100% sure if Devin is unconnected enough from the last name....What name do you see me as? (and you can't say my current name)
First, i'd have to explain about my "father" although guy who got my mom pregnant is a much better description of what he was. I'm going to keep the details low, but basically he made my life a living hell, he mad my mom and me miserable for 20 some years, he's the man behind such kind words like "Take the boy, I don't want him" He's the kind of guy who when a wheel on my bike gave in and I crashed and came home crying laughed with his brothers about how I probably smashed the tire trying to get a new bike, even tho I was clearly all scratched up from wiping out. The kind of guy who responds to my mother leaving him by going outside and shooting our two dogs. The kind of guy who when I stopped by the house to pick up some of my things since I had to leave so suddenly accuses me of "stealing" for my mother. The kind of guy who threatened violence if he ever sees me again and the kind of guy who tells people he doesn't have a son. You get the idea.
What does he have to do with the name situation you might ask. Well this. First off, My last name, since it's the easiest. Stevens, it's his name, not mine. So why not just change the last name? Well first because the only reason I'm named Bradley is because he hated the name Devin, second, because it's been 24 years of Bradley Stevens. They can't really be separated, when I hear Brad, I remember both. Everyday, whenever anyone calls me or says hi or anything, it's like a jab with a knife.
So why now you ask? Well because over the past year I've had a nickname. Firefly, because of being an orientation leader at school. And I realized, when people call me that, I don't feel the pain, and I realized exactly how much the old name really hurts me.
I know changing my name wouldn't be easy on me, or anyone else whos known me, but I feel it's necessary, and althought I'm not entirely decided yet, I hope whatever I decide people support me.
Also, because I'm 100% sure if Devin is unconnected enough from the last name....What name do you see me as? (and you can't say my current name)