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Ok this might fall into the realm of TMI about me, but if you want to read, don't say I didn't warn you.
Ok, so my doctors doubled my anti-depressant dosage, and it's basically confirmed what I thought before. I'd noticed that when I was taking the medicine faithfully and not missing any, it would get harder and harder to "get off" (which lead to one entirely embarrassing encounter with this one guy where I had to fake an orgasm just to get it over with, since after like 2 hours I was tired....) While I do feel marginally better when on the meds because I don't have to deal with all the major downs, just small ones, I also don't feel much in the way of ups. I can be having the time of my life, and all I feel is slightly happy if even, and it fades fast. I'm still never sure whether I'm better off on or off the meds. Certainly I can't keep overdosing and jumping in rivers, or else eventually I just might hurt myself seriously (I'm starting to think something or someone big doesn't want me to die, and I'm not sure it's for any good reasons....)In any case, the sexual frustration of not being able to get off is really starting to bother me......hope no one was too disturbed by that.
Ok, so my doctors doubled my anti-depressant dosage, and it's basically confirmed what I thought before. I'd noticed that when I was taking the medicine faithfully and not missing any, it would get harder and harder to "get off" (which lead to one entirely embarrassing encounter with this one guy where I had to fake an orgasm just to get it over with, since after like 2 hours I was tired....) While I do feel marginally better when on the meds because I don't have to deal with all the major downs, just small ones, I also don't feel much in the way of ups. I can be having the time of my life, and all I feel is slightly happy if even, and it fades fast. I'm still never sure whether I'm better off on or off the meds. Certainly I can't keep overdosing and jumping in rivers, or else eventually I just might hurt myself seriously (I'm starting to think something or someone big doesn't want me to die, and I'm not sure it's for any good reasons....)In any case, the sexual frustration of not being able to get off is really starting to bother me......hope no one was too disturbed by that.