Road Trip
I have visited 4 different houses and slept in a hotel in the last...week. Strangely enough I have enjoyed myself at every location. While I am normally solitary I find I am really enjoying visiting with friends and family. The impending festival and being locked into a vending booth does provide some trepidation but I am commited to fulfill my vow.
I still often question my mental health... thats supposed to be healthy I've heard. I am aware and discomfited by rages and disassociation with such. I will be looking into pharaceuticals and counciling after this journey is over.
I am experimenting with techniques in sensing. If I allow myself I can feel objects or people. It is a non-tactile version of "fingers cameras." I am working on my range for this sensing. I have started trying to "sense" the moon. No luck yet. I keep thinking of yoda tutoring Luke Skywalker as they are removing his X-wing from the swamp. I forget what he says but it is pertinent... perhaps related is a better term. Research the reference if you wish... I don't.
While I am improving terms perhaps feeling would be better than sensing. Whatever the process is, it makes objects more real. Reality is a smeared collection of background shadows. I keep my feeling/sensing turned inside most of the time. It disturbs most people if I really look out at them.
I still often question my mental health... thats supposed to be healthy I've heard. I am aware and discomfited by rages and disassociation with such. I will be looking into pharaceuticals and counciling after this journey is over.
I am experimenting with techniques in sensing. If I allow myself I can feel objects or people. It is a non-tactile version of "fingers cameras." I am working on my range for this sensing. I have started trying to "sense" the moon. No luck yet. I keep thinking of yoda tutoring Luke Skywalker as they are removing his X-wing from the swamp. I forget what he says but it is pertinent... perhaps related is a better term. Research the reference if you wish... I don't.
While I am improving terms perhaps feeling would be better than sensing. Whatever the process is, it makes objects more real. Reality is a smeared collection of background shadows. I keep my feeling/sensing turned inside most of the time. It disturbs most people if I really look out at them.