I Don't Feel LIke....
Tired as crap today. Been feeling the sting of loneliness as of late. I am returning home in about 3 weeks for a few days and am scared of confronting the painful last 3 months. I just know even though it'll only be a 3 day visit that i will run into....you know and i don't feel like dealing with something that i believe is dead.
The longer i stay in SB the more i love it here...but i still haven't connected with any guy really yet...i connected with a couple...and ended up playing matchmaker. With Al, i could see him and Nicole working out. So i set them up...inconspiculously though haha. Just kept mentioning her. Now he adores her...and she's feeling it out.
I made Mandy feel territorial about this guy that she wasn't sure she liked...i KNEW he was perfect for her though...so i flirted with him in front of her...and he got it instantly and did it back. mandy told me alst night that she thought she wanted to date him. i was like "haha i knew you did." then she understood why danny and me were flirting. then was kinda miffed that i used that tactic. i just laughed at her.
So i am really good at finding boys for others..just not me...not that i've been actively searching...the pain of my last relationship is still too near i suppose
But i am being doted on majorly by my sorority right now still for tuesday night. the word "paramedic" "doctor" and such have been tossed around. it's a good feeling to know that i could help someone...but still kinda uncomfortable i mean...who WOULDNT do what i did....kinda common humane decency dontchya think? I don't know.
Feeling nostalgic lately...i miss what i used to have in High School, and i understand that i can't have that life anymore...but it doesnt make it any better....
*sigh* confronting problems? who DOES that?! haha. I don't feel like loving...anyone today. haha
AgApE24
The longer i stay in SB the more i love it here...but i still haven't connected with any guy really yet...i connected with a couple...and ended up playing matchmaker. With Al, i could see him and Nicole working out. So i set them up...inconspiculously though haha. Just kept mentioning her. Now he adores her...and she's feeling it out.
I made Mandy feel territorial about this guy that she wasn't sure she liked...i KNEW he was perfect for her though...so i flirted with him in front of her...and he got it instantly and did it back. mandy told me alst night that she thought she wanted to date him. i was like "haha i knew you did." then she understood why danny and me were flirting. then was kinda miffed that i used that tactic. i just laughed at her.
So i am really good at finding boys for others..just not me...not that i've been actively searching...the pain of my last relationship is still too near i suppose
But i am being doted on majorly by my sorority right now still for tuesday night. the word "paramedic" "doctor" and such have been tossed around. it's a good feeling to know that i could help someone...but still kinda uncomfortable i mean...who WOULDNT do what i did....kinda common humane decency dontchya think? I don't know.
Feeling nostalgic lately...i miss what i used to have in High School, and i understand that i can't have that life anymore...but it doesnt make it any better....
*sigh* confronting problems? who DOES that?! haha. I don't feel like loving...anyone today. haha
AgApE24