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i don't even feel like im in my own skin. i feel as if im on the sidelines watching this crazy person life her life. it's not that i'm unhappy, because believe me, i am. i've just been in a really weird mood for the past couple of days. and carson always makes it better. just talking to him and being around him lifts my spirits so much. i have no idea how to explain what he does to me, but it's something. every day i'm more and more eager for this friendship to just keep getting stronger. i'm looking forward to life. my future. my family. my friends. my new experiances. it's a lot to take in though, so hopefully i find my gift along the way. in the meantime.. call me, let's hangout. i'm becoming the most amazing friend i know.