u dont know

[againsthehumans]

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i dont know
too much time too much time
everything just dissolves
but itll come back again
i know it will it always does
so i cant get over it
i cant just let it go and stop thinking about it
not anymore
at least i think that's the answer
but how else to deal with it
ive never gotten over anything any other way
how do u do it
i need help
i want him
and it figures the two nights this happens are the ones hes not around
asshole
how hard is it to return a fucking phone call
and what do i do now
what am i even thinking about
i cant even try to figure it out
i dont even really know if this is the right idea if this is what i need if this is what i want
what the fuck am i doing
i could become anything right now

i really dont know if im going to
but if i change a lot soon (though this really goes for any time)
do me a favor and dont make a big deal out of it