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alright. 2 surgeries down, and they didnt do fucking shit. the doctors wrapped the aneurysm up. while the surgery was goin on, just so happens grams has a stroke. how great is that? so now her whole left side of her body is paralyzed now. shes been in a deep sleep since the first surgery and hasnt woken up. shes not in a coma, just a deep sleep. she still moves her right hand and her leg so its not a coma. she squeezed my hand every so often but thats just reaction of movement that she does without thinking. if you try and tell her to move her arm, or wiggle her toes she doesnt. we dont know if she cant hear us, or cant comprehend what were saying or what. i guess it can stay like this from 3 days to 3 months. just fucking great. so now today ive slumped into the worst depression ever. my family will be getting into one of the worst fights ever pretty soon if she doesnt come out of this cuz my aunts trying to make it her duty to be the fuckin queen of the hive with this whole deal. noone has a good feeling about this, seeing grams come out of this. nurses say shes not looking good at all, even my mom is saying that, and shes the one thats optimistic and real. i really dont know what will happen. i dont know what to do. i have to work tomorrow 8-3. woo.
-lb-
come out to c-town
out here you'll learn to drown
your emotions in drugs
meth, coke, marijuana nugs
come out here, you'll get addicted
till you cant see the pain youve inflicted
lose your friends, and family
those days of once bein happy and merrily
switched to depression
and more addiction
you used to have a mill
now you got one bill, tryin to buy a pill
find a dealer, make the switch
becomin a personal bitch to help that itch
its all out in c-town buddy
out here, everyones a bit nutty
meth heads, coke heads, pot heads
someone from one tooth, to full teeth and dreads
out in c-town, its where you lose it all
your family waits for that one important call
yes your son is in jail
whats that? no you wont post bail
getting in trouble for buying dope
usin that as an excuse you lose all hope
noone will help you this time
brotha cant even spare you a dime
now its time for rehab
had a car, sold it, now you take a cab
-lb-
come out to c-town
out here you'll learn to drown
your emotions in drugs
meth, coke, marijuana nugs
come out here, you'll get addicted
till you cant see the pain youve inflicted
lose your friends, and family
those days of once bein happy and merrily
switched to depression
and more addiction
you used to have a mill
now you got one bill, tryin to buy a pill
find a dealer, make the switch
becomin a personal bitch to help that itch
its all out in c-town buddy
out here, everyones a bit nutty
meth heads, coke heads, pot heads
someone from one tooth, to full teeth and dreads
out in c-town, its where you lose it all
your family waits for that one important call
yes your son is in jail
whats that? no you wont post bail
getting in trouble for buying dope
usin that as an excuse you lose all hope
noone will help you this time
brotha cant even spare you a dime
now its time for rehab
had a car, sold it, now you take a cab