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I didn't find anything out about the little girls yet; owing to my unique ability to block out anything important or urgent or life-threatening, I forgot about it. It's kind of scary, and I keep my paper journal to help me remember thing. Otherwise I get into scintillating conversations with people, but when I see them again they mention what we talked about last, and it's hard not to give a blank look. I get excited, really excited about stuff, and oddly when the conversation is over with, I go home and the enthusiasm wears off, and I'm stuck with the same old me. I just don't care. I think it scares me. I would think it's old age, but I remember that happening once when I was kid. I think I know now why it happens, it's just me blocking out stuff when I'm talking to people outside the house, but then when I get home, the awfulness seizes me and I'm a different person, dealing with it in a different way. I hope I find out what happened to those little girls.
I saw my #2 bro and sis yesterday, they drove me and mom over to their house across town, the one they had been renting while they lived out of town. It definitely looks like they are going to try and work and live here now, after a long time of living out of the city.
Bro mistakenly offered her a glass of wine, then went, oops! nevermind, no wine. She then said, oh no, I've quit smoking and I've quit drinking. Well, she did quit smoking years ago, cold turkey. But she is not drinking because she cannot drive, the doctor diagnosed her with dementia. No keys, no driving. I don't know how many times she quit, told people that she had, then drifted back into it, drinking hard. Lost teeth to too much alchohol,drank herself into the hospital twice, amost killed herself the last time. She's tried since then to "get the car keys", but no way, of course.
Last month or two ago our cordless phone and microwave just quit working. Both were years and years old, but it's funny they went at the same time. I'm starting to put two and two together and wonder though. Shortly before it happened, I was in the kitchen, waiting for my coffee to warm, listening to the weather report on the phone. I heard an odd crackling and realized I was maybe too close the micrawave with the phone. A couple weeks later, they both just died, the microwave took a while. Like I say they were both quite old, but the timing is funny. Darn. We had to go back to heating up on the stove and the old corded phone, since older bro and I are not working, no way were we even going to talk about chipping in for a new one. Mom is retired and Sis does so much already.
--Off to the store to get toilet paper, what a thrill.
I saw my #2 bro and sis yesterday, they drove me and mom over to their house across town, the one they had been renting while they lived out of town. It definitely looks like they are going to try and work and live here now, after a long time of living out of the city.
Bro mistakenly offered her a glass of wine, then went, oops! nevermind, no wine. She then said, oh no, I've quit smoking and I've quit drinking. Well, she did quit smoking years ago, cold turkey. But she is not drinking because she cannot drive, the doctor diagnosed her with dementia. No keys, no driving. I don't know how many times she quit, told people that she had, then drifted back into it, drinking hard. Lost teeth to too much alchohol,drank herself into the hospital twice, amost killed herself the last time. She's tried since then to "get the car keys", but no way, of course.
Last month or two ago our cordless phone and microwave just quit working. Both were years and years old, but it's funny they went at the same time. I'm starting to put two and two together and wonder though. Shortly before it happened, I was in the kitchen, waiting for my coffee to warm, listening to the weather report on the phone. I heard an odd crackling and realized I was maybe too close the micrawave with the phone. A couple weeks later, they both just died, the microwave took a while. Like I say they were both quite old, but the timing is funny. Darn. We had to go back to heating up on the stove and the old corded phone, since older bro and I are not working, no way were we even going to talk about chipping in for a new one. Mom is retired and Sis does so much already.
--Off to the store to get toilet paper, what a thrill.