Stars shining bright above you, night breezes seem to whisper I love you
So I might have just kind of sorta signed up for lotsbigbang.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I THINK I WILL HAVE TIME TO DO THIS.
I just know that I really want to write some Legend of the Seeker fan fiction, and especially something epic and long and... oh, man, I'm not good at epic and long. I'm very good at writing short stories because I can end it in one go. But my novels have all suffered from forever work-in-progress state, mostly because I can figure out how to begin (that's the easiest) and how to end it but then I'm stuck with filling the stuff in the middle. WHY ARE MIDDLES SO ANNOYING. It's like those filler episodes in a TV show; you know, they're not as important but kind of necessary for length. Apparently I'm not good at less important.
But then again I've never tried writing a long fan fiction before. I don't think I have, anyway. And okay, I've written some original stories that are moderately long, but nowhere near a novel. I suppose 15,000 words doesn't constitute as a novel, but I haven't really figured out how long that'd be either. I'M ALL SORTS OF SCARED THAT I'M IN OVER MY HEAD HERE.
But also kind of excited. Mainly morgenwrites's fic was the one that has made me want to start writing LotS, and she's also said she was going to give me the prompt for this challenge because OH YEAH have I mentioned that I signed up without a plot in mind? XD
I DON'T EVEN KNOW, YOU GUYS. (Can you tell I'm freaking out? But also excited, because. I haven't written anything that isn't role-playing this year. THAT IS NOT COOL.)
When I first saw the community, my thoughts pretty much constitute these 1) I'm still too scared to touch the LotS characters because I love them so much and they're so epic I might never do them justice, 2) It's held June-September, one month of which I'm sure I'll be scrambling to finish my thesis, 3) 15,000 words. See above - I don't generally write long stuff. But this is fan fiction, so I'm really hoping that it would work out better. (Also, I kind of have a CardCaptor Sakura ongoing fiction in FF.net that is still getting added to people's subscriptions despite me taking months to add a new chapter... but I do kind of plan to make that one long. I just have been stuck figuring out the details for the next chapters because it doesn't have one big arc. Ugh.)
Anyway, I just really hope I'll pull through this time. Because I really want to, for once. And maybe having deadlines and pressure will help. I know NaNoWriMo didn't, but that's 50,000 words and one month. I probably should have taken baby steps anyway.
WHATEVER. WISH ME LUCK GUYS. This is my first bigbang (and of course it has to be LotS).
Also, things that I really wish I'm rich so I could buy and make myself the happiest person in the world:
- Kahlan's Rada'Han
- Sister of the Dark Costume
- Sister of the Dark Shoes
Yes, all original. *_* Not that the clothes/shoes would fit me, I don't think (damn those small, slim actors). If Kahlan's white dress is up for auction as well it'll totally be on the list too.
Oh, I started watching movies again after most TV shows ended. I'm very glad I started with Leap Year - I love it. After being disappointed by so many "epic" movies like Clash of the Titans, Iron Man 2 and Prince of Persia, I've come to appreciate simpler movies with clear, engaging storylines better.
I kinda felt like there was a cop out at the end, after Anna got engaged and her boyfriend announced that he only finally proposed to her in order to get the apartment. I genuinely thought he was finally coming to his senses and being the boyfriend she has always wanted, and I was curious how they would solve the dilemma of her choosing between Jeremy and whats-his-name (I can't believe I don't remember the male lead character's name) based on who she loves better, who her heart wants more. But then Jeremy went and did that and provided her with the easy way out. I kinda hate it when storylines do this! Like when Lauren in Alias turned out to be evil and not really loving Vaughn anyway so Sydney/Vaughn could get back together despite him having been married.
It kind of takes the choice out of our main character, you know? So because of that, Anna knew who's the better man and she went after him. Why couldn't they both have been great guys? And she just has to know which one she loves more? What's wrong with that? Or is it because women in her position - having been in a relationship for 4 years, and her boyfriend finally proposed, despite her having spent a few crazy days with this new guy in some romantic whirlwind adventure, she would never pick the new guy? Because it doesn't make sense? Because it'll be a leap of faith and most people would think it's stupid thus unable to identify or relate with her? (But I thought that's what romantic comedies are all about. Y'know, doing crazy stuff because you're in love and the heart wants what it wants, etc) I just wish the writers would have been braver either way.
Like, in Forces of Nature? This guy's supposed to come to his wedding except he got stranded in the airport due to bad weather and ended up traveling with a woman he just met, and it seems like nature was trying to tell him to forget about his bride and just be with this girl whom he might have grown to love during their adventure? This movie was one of those that had an unpredictable twist for me in the end. I so didn't see it coming; the way he ended up still choosing his bride, despite tornadoes and whatnot on the day of the wedding itself. At first I felt cheated, because that's not how the movie led me to believe it would end, but then I was also pleasantly surprised, and maybe even believed that the point was this guy was faithful, so faithful even when nature itself tried to prevent him and his fiance from getting married. Even when he's had this other woman that the audience is rooting for to be with him... he still chose to be with his fiance whom we can't sympathize with because we know hardly anything about her.
So, you see... it could've gone either way and it would've still been a more satisfying ending. Whoever Anna ended up choosing, I would have supported, because she's the one who knows best with whom she'll be happier. And not just because one of them turns out to be a jerk at the last second, sending her running into the arms of the other guy, who by now feels just like a back-up/second choice. I actually feel bad for that-guy-whose-name-I-still-can't-remember, because as far as the audience is concerned, Anna only chose him because Jeremy turned out to be less than perfect at the last second. She didn't choose him first. I guess we know now that had things been equal, she still wouldn't have chosen him.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I THINK I WILL HAVE TIME TO DO THIS.
I just know that I really want to write some Legend of the Seeker fan fiction, and especially something epic and long and... oh, man, I'm not good at epic and long. I'm very good at writing short stories because I can end it in one go. But my novels have all suffered from forever work-in-progress state, mostly because I can figure out how to begin (that's the easiest) and how to end it but then I'm stuck with filling the stuff in the middle. WHY ARE MIDDLES SO ANNOYING. It's like those filler episodes in a TV show; you know, they're not as important but kind of necessary for length. Apparently I'm not good at less important.
But then again I've never tried writing a long fan fiction before. I don't think I have, anyway. And okay, I've written some original stories that are moderately long, but nowhere near a novel. I suppose 15,000 words doesn't constitute as a novel, but I haven't really figured out how long that'd be either. I'M ALL SORTS OF SCARED THAT I'M IN OVER MY HEAD HERE.
But also kind of excited. Mainly morgenwrites's fic was the one that has made me want to start writing LotS, and she's also said she was going to give me the prompt for this challenge because OH YEAH have I mentioned that I signed up without a plot in mind? XD
I DON'T EVEN KNOW, YOU GUYS. (Can you tell I'm freaking out? But also excited, because. I haven't written anything that isn't role-playing this year. THAT IS NOT COOL.)
When I first saw the community, my thoughts pretty much constitute these 1) I'm still too scared to touch the LotS characters because I love them so much and they're so epic I might never do them justice, 2) It's held June-September, one month of which I'm sure I'll be scrambling to finish my thesis, 3) 15,000 words. See above - I don't generally write long stuff. But this is fan fiction, so I'm really hoping that it would work out better. (Also, I kind of have a CardCaptor Sakura ongoing fiction in FF.net that is still getting added to people's subscriptions despite me taking months to add a new chapter... but I do kind of plan to make that one long. I just have been stuck figuring out the details for the next chapters because it doesn't have one big arc. Ugh.)
Anyway, I just really hope I'll pull through this time. Because I really want to, for once. And maybe having deadlines and pressure will help. I know NaNoWriMo didn't, but that's 50,000 words and one month. I probably should have taken baby steps anyway.
WHATEVER. WISH ME LUCK GUYS. This is my first bigbang (and of course it has to be LotS).
Also, things that I really wish I'm rich so I could buy and make myself the happiest person in the world:
- Kahlan's Rada'Han
- Sister of the Dark Costume
- Sister of the Dark Shoes
Yes, all original. *_* Not that the clothes/shoes would fit me, I don't think (damn those small, slim actors). If Kahlan's white dress is up for auction as well it'll totally be on the list too.
Oh, I started watching movies again after most TV shows ended. I'm very glad I started with Leap Year - I love it. After being disappointed by so many "epic" movies like Clash of the Titans, Iron Man 2 and Prince of Persia, I've come to appreciate simpler movies with clear, engaging storylines better.
I kinda felt like there was a cop out at the end, after Anna got engaged and her boyfriend announced that he only finally proposed to her in order to get the apartment. I genuinely thought he was finally coming to his senses and being the boyfriend she has always wanted, and I was curious how they would solve the dilemma of her choosing between Jeremy and whats-his-name (I can't believe I don't remember the male lead character's name) based on who she loves better, who her heart wants more. But then Jeremy went and did that and provided her with the easy way out. I kinda hate it when storylines do this! Like when Lauren in Alias turned out to be evil and not really loving Vaughn anyway so Sydney/Vaughn could get back together despite him having been married.
It kind of takes the choice out of our main character, you know? So because of that, Anna knew who's the better man and she went after him. Why couldn't they both have been great guys? And she just has to know which one she loves more? What's wrong with that? Or is it because women in her position - having been in a relationship for 4 years, and her boyfriend finally proposed, despite her having spent a few crazy days with this new guy in some romantic whirlwind adventure, she would never pick the new guy? Because it doesn't make sense? Because it'll be a leap of faith and most people would think it's stupid thus unable to identify or relate with her? (But I thought that's what romantic comedies are all about. Y'know, doing crazy stuff because you're in love and the heart wants what it wants, etc) I just wish the writers would have been braver either way.
Like, in Forces of Nature? This guy's supposed to come to his wedding except he got stranded in the airport due to bad weather and ended up traveling with a woman he just met, and it seems like nature was trying to tell him to forget about his bride and just be with this girl whom he might have grown to love during their adventure? This movie was one of those that had an unpredictable twist for me in the end. I so didn't see it coming; the way he ended up still choosing his bride, despite tornadoes and whatnot on the day of the wedding itself. At first I felt cheated, because that's not how the movie led me to believe it would end, but then I was also pleasantly surprised, and maybe even believed that the point was this guy was faithful, so faithful even when nature itself tried to prevent him and his fiance from getting married. Even when he's had this other woman that the audience is rooting for to be with him... he still chose to be with his fiance whom we can't sympathize with because we know hardly anything about her.
So, you see... it could've gone either way and it would've still been a more satisfying ending. Whoever Anna ended up choosing, I would have supported, because she's the one who knows best with whom she'll be happier. And not just because one of them turns out to be a jerk at the last second, sending her running into the arms of the other guy, who by now feels just like a back-up/second choice. I actually feel bad for that-guy-whose-name-I-still-can't-remember, because as far as the audience is concerned, Anna only chose him because Jeremy turned out to be less than perfect at the last second. She didn't choose him first. I guess we know now that had things been equal, she still wouldn't have chosen him.