I have a secret...
The vil preview was fun...note to self: make sure to rest and be fully hydrated when performing..
I HATE my job. This isn't that little "blech...I don't wanna' work today" hate. I am physically miserable when I even think about work. I'm sick of the politics, I'm sick of the fucking lies and bullshit. I'm sick of the fact that I'm paid 11.60/hr only to have a good chunk of it taken away for taxes (which I expect) and fucking union dues.
Friday really hit me. I had the day off today, however due to the fact I'm pissed off/dehydrated and wound up crying to John on the way back to the car from the show tonight...I may call in sick tomorrow.
What happened Friday? So, appearently I'm decent at this job, I get good scores on quality, was made a quality advocate, even got an award.
I applied for a department I figured would suit me better and would make me want to stay longer (since I've been thinking about leaving for a month or so now). Now AT&T claims to be big about tenure in the company.
I didn't get the job.
not only that, the person who did get the job has been there 2 months less then me...I helped that training class. I was able to buck it up and say congrats.
but it really got to me. I can take some of the nastiest insults but when it's something like this...I am hurt. Which is why I wound up crying to John tonight, which is why I've been slightly out of it, which is why I may seem grumpier then usual.
this. job. is. making. me. miserable.
in talking to other coworkers (who aren't completely brainwashed), there's alot of us looking for new jobs. for the same reasons...a good chunk of my training class has either left already or is going to..
I literally get a headache when I even think about going to work. I get acid attacks while there.
niferdoodle, I don't think I can honestly tough it out much longer. I'm sick of the setting, I'm sick of the attitudes, the fakiness, the constant bullshit.
If I stay home tomorrow...I will be sending out a resume to anywhere I can think of.
If anyone has ANY leads on something I might do well at. PLEASE! let me know...I need to get out of my current situation.
I'm going to go have some tea...
later
I HATE my job. This isn't that little "blech...I don't wanna' work today" hate. I am physically miserable when I even think about work. I'm sick of the politics, I'm sick of the fucking lies and bullshit. I'm sick of the fact that I'm paid 11.60/hr only to have a good chunk of it taken away for taxes (which I expect) and fucking union dues.
Friday really hit me. I had the day off today, however due to the fact I'm pissed off/dehydrated and wound up crying to John on the way back to the car from the show tonight...I may call in sick tomorrow.
What happened Friday? So, appearently I'm decent at this job, I get good scores on quality, was made a quality advocate, even got an award.
I applied for a department I figured would suit me better and would make me want to stay longer (since I've been thinking about leaving for a month or so now). Now AT&T claims to be big about tenure in the company.
I didn't get the job.
not only that, the person who did get the job has been there 2 months less then me...I helped that training class. I was able to buck it up and say congrats.
but it really got to me. I can take some of the nastiest insults but when it's something like this...I am hurt. Which is why I wound up crying to John tonight, which is why I've been slightly out of it, which is why I may seem grumpier then usual.
this. job. is. making. me. miserable.
in talking to other coworkers (who aren't completely brainwashed), there's alot of us looking for new jobs. for the same reasons...a good chunk of my training class has either left already or is going to..
I literally get a headache when I even think about going to work. I get acid attacks while there.
niferdoodle, I don't think I can honestly tough it out much longer. I'm sick of the setting, I'm sick of the attitudes, the fakiness, the constant bullshit.
If I stay home tomorrow...I will be sending out a resume to anywhere I can think of.
If anyone has ANY leads on something I might do well at. PLEASE! let me know...I need to get out of my current situation.
I'm going to go have some tea...
later