Help girls
hello,
I am a very young lady and wantedo have a baby with my man. We don't have much money, but we do have our own place. We don't have a car or benefits of insurance, or anything fancy like that. But I loved him and wanted a baby so we got pregnant. When I told my Mom she nearly killed me and said things like, "Do you want to start a chain of welfare?!" "how will you feed it? you don't even have an education!" "YOU'LL DIE IF YOU GIVE BIRTH, YOUR BODY IS TOO UNDERDEVELOPED AND YOU'RE TOO YOUNG" I am eighteen. But it feels like she made me have an abortion. She paid over $500 dollars for our hotel and bus fare. (We had to go to another city, but in Canada the procedure is free)
After I had the abortion I felt great. I was back to being slim and pretty. But, my boyfriend and I told friends we were having a baby and I was 18 weeks when I had the abortion. They probably wondered what happened but I didnt even bring it up. I just told my best friend I had a miscarriage.
I know you might think Im a pig for having abortion at 18 weeks, but as you know I planned on keeping this baby but I couldnt take my Mom disowning me. She is my only family and I was so, so alone... She wouldnt talk to me or give me money unless I had an abortion. My boyfriend and I went without food, some days. It was hard.
I have been feeling guilt because the fetus was so old. I saw an ultra sound, I watched it roll around in my belly. Oh god, I can feel the tears. Please dont think Im being all dramatic, if I was only a month or two even I wouldnt feel so bad. If I hadnt wanted a baby I wouldnt feel so bad. If I didnt love or know the man I wouldnt feel bad, but I feel this is my fault because I am the one hwo planned to get pregnant. Does anybody wonder what their baby would of been like?
Anyway, it has been quite some time now and I have been craving a baby again. I can't even get pregnant without moving away because my Mother would find out and we can't afford to move. My boyfriend has a part time job now and I have a job offer, too at a bank. But if my Mom found out she really would disown me and Im scared of her disaproval. What can I do? Run awaym have a baby and elope? Or stay here, work and just keep longing and maybe one day regret it? please help...
Oh, and to all you who had an abortion I know its not easy hearing all that pro life sh*t and the jokes but youre not alone.
I am a very young lady and wantedo have a baby with my man. We don't have much money, but we do have our own place. We don't have a car or benefits of insurance, or anything fancy like that. But I loved him and wanted a baby so we got pregnant. When I told my Mom she nearly killed me and said things like, "Do you want to start a chain of welfare?!" "how will you feed it? you don't even have an education!" "YOU'LL DIE IF YOU GIVE BIRTH, YOUR BODY IS TOO UNDERDEVELOPED AND YOU'RE TOO YOUNG" I am eighteen. But it feels like she made me have an abortion. She paid over $500 dollars for our hotel and bus fare. (We had to go to another city, but in Canada the procedure is free)
After I had the abortion I felt great. I was back to being slim and pretty. But, my boyfriend and I told friends we were having a baby and I was 18 weeks when I had the abortion. They probably wondered what happened but I didnt even bring it up. I just told my best friend I had a miscarriage.
I know you might think Im a pig for having abortion at 18 weeks, but as you know I planned on keeping this baby but I couldnt take my Mom disowning me. She is my only family and I was so, so alone... She wouldnt talk to me or give me money unless I had an abortion. My boyfriend and I went without food, some days. It was hard.
I have been feeling guilt because the fetus was so old. I saw an ultra sound, I watched it roll around in my belly. Oh god, I can feel the tears. Please dont think Im being all dramatic, if I was only a month or two even I wouldnt feel so bad. If I hadnt wanted a baby I wouldnt feel so bad. If I didnt love or know the man I wouldnt feel bad, but I feel this is my fault because I am the one hwo planned to get pregnant. Does anybody wonder what their baby would of been like?
Anyway, it has been quite some time now and I have been craving a baby again. I can't even get pregnant without moving away because my Mother would find out and we can't afford to move. My boyfriend has a part time job now and I have a job offer, too at a bank. But if my Mom found out she really would disown me and Im scared of her disaproval. What can I do? Run awaym have a baby and elope? Or stay here, work and just keep longing and maybe one day regret it? please help...
Oh, and to all you who had an abortion I know its not easy hearing all that pro life sh*t and the jokes but youre not alone.