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I've begun writing poetry again... Terrible poetry, but poetry no less. I find it harder to write when I'm happy than when I'm upset... I don't think I know how to describe happiness. I'm like a child when I'm happy, and so my words come out immature... I'm better at describing pain. I find it depressing. I don't want to end up like Emily Dickinson (whose poetry I hate) who is published after she dies and everyone just says "Oh yeah, that depressed chick." That't not who I am anymore.