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so i have found out more about myself...
i found out that i actually was a Failure to Thrive(ftt) this year
its an unexplained 'phenomenon'of the mind
its most common with infants and elderly... but it also can hit young adults
and what it is... the mind some how desides its done and has givin up
so the body pretty much shuts itself down... it stops absorbing nutrion... no matter how much is consumed or even put in an IV, the person will continue to disinagrate
and everything just stops working
its kinda intresting cause that is exactly what happened to me... hence why i had it
there is more to it but that is the biggest thing
but its weird cause psychologist and doctors dont know why it happens
Failure to Thrive describes it perfectly cause... the person just fails at it
but its hard for me cause it explains why this year why i will start feeling better but the minute i feel like i dont really have need to live... besides the fact that people will miss me... but have a puropse kinda thing
i start falling to where i was... i start to lose weight
and unfortantly i am old enough and too intellegent to not realize what is happening
but what is getting me through as of late is that i can be happy one day... i just need to get past this
this has brought me to a whole new spot in my life...
i had to change so much of what i thought my life would be... where i want to be...
i think i have to go through all this just so i can get to where i need to be and on the path i need to be on
if i didnt come home... i wouldnt have made some decisions... havent learned about certain people... so im not making some decisions for them that would corispond...
i also would have not desided to move to hawaii instead of LA
and i would have not joined arbonne that will allow me to work at what i love without worrying about money
im just going to keep looking to the furture so i do not become another victum to FTT
i found out that i actually was a Failure to Thrive(ftt) this year
its an unexplained 'phenomenon'of the mind
its most common with infants and elderly... but it also can hit young adults
and what it is... the mind some how desides its done and has givin up
so the body pretty much shuts itself down... it stops absorbing nutrion... no matter how much is consumed or even put in an IV, the person will continue to disinagrate
and everything just stops working
its kinda intresting cause that is exactly what happened to me... hence why i had it
there is more to it but that is the biggest thing
but its weird cause psychologist and doctors dont know why it happens
Failure to Thrive describes it perfectly cause... the person just fails at it
but its hard for me cause it explains why this year why i will start feeling better but the minute i feel like i dont really have need to live... besides the fact that people will miss me... but have a puropse kinda thing
i start falling to where i was... i start to lose weight
and unfortantly i am old enough and too intellegent to not realize what is happening
but what is getting me through as of late is that i can be happy one day... i just need to get past this
this has brought me to a whole new spot in my life...
i had to change so much of what i thought my life would be... where i want to be...
i think i have to go through all this just so i can get to where i need to be and on the path i need to be on
if i didnt come home... i wouldnt have made some decisions... havent learned about certain people... so im not making some decisions for them that would corispond...
i also would have not desided to move to hawaii instead of LA
and i would have not joined arbonne that will allow me to work at what i love without worrying about money
im just going to keep looking to the furture so i do not become another victum to FTT