champagne supernova in the sky
this morning I went into ashley's room at 1015 and woke her up! she was so cute! so I was like psssssttt a few times trying to be nice about waking her but she tricked me because she was awake so she popped up and roared! I was scared.
we ate breakfast with the kitties and then went to the oceanfront. at first we just wrote down some numbers to call, then we stopped at 2 realtors and got listings for the area. I mean, we did a lot for just a few hours but I can just see all the crap we are going to have to do. it's like everyday my mind sees things as a little more impossible. it's not really like that. I don't know it's just hard to stay optimistic when I don't feel like I have control. It's hard. I can't wait for my mom to come rescue me and help me move all my crap. honestly, I think I'm just going to end up doing all the packing during the 2 weeks she is here. I mean, wtf. I don't know. I am starting to do morning bike rides with jason. just started today. it's going to be fuuunnn and healthy! now I am going to stop thinking about hard things that I have to do and start doing work!
I'm thinking of interviewing Lucero for the next persistence. it's hard to think of questions, though. so if I think of enough questions, I'll do it. but if not, I won't. It's just an idea and I thought it'd be cool to ask all of them who their favorite ninja turtles are. then I was thinking and maybe they grew up before that... they are like 30something... but I have a couple of other questions I've thought of.
Everyday I become more happy about staying here. Yesterday I saw my old neighbor, Mrs. Baggett, who rides her bike everyday and walks everyday with her doggy robin. She's been doing that since I was a youngster and she is really old so it does wonders. She made me smile at that moment and say to myself, maybe I am meant to be here for a while longer. Plus, with the sun coming out more, I have been outside more and I do enjoy the area and the people. I can fog my own thoughts sometimes. a lot of times.
Terry and Hank make me happy to be staying here as well. Terry is just so nice and so is Hank. I think I should be more appreciative of the opportunities I have made for myself and especially opportunities that others have handed to me.
this has become a little more insightful than I had expected. but I have to mention the biggest thing that makes me happy to be here and that's Jason. sometimes it feels too good to be true. well, a lot of times actually.
I am so excited for asheville. I need to get something extra special for my mommy. too bad my pockets are tight lately or I'd buy her something expensive. it's always more fun to be creative, though.
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we ate breakfast with the kitties and then went to the oceanfront. at first we just wrote down some numbers to call, then we stopped at 2 realtors and got listings for the area. I mean, we did a lot for just a few hours but I can just see all the crap we are going to have to do. it's like everyday my mind sees things as a little more impossible. it's not really like that. I don't know it's just hard to stay optimistic when I don't feel like I have control. It's hard. I can't wait for my mom to come rescue me and help me move all my crap. honestly, I think I'm just going to end up doing all the packing during the 2 weeks she is here. I mean, wtf. I don't know. I am starting to do morning bike rides with jason. just started today. it's going to be fuuunnn and healthy! now I am going to stop thinking about hard things that I have to do and start doing work!
I'm thinking of interviewing Lucero for the next persistence. it's hard to think of questions, though. so if I think of enough questions, I'll do it. but if not, I won't. It's just an idea and I thought it'd be cool to ask all of them who their favorite ninja turtles are. then I was thinking and maybe they grew up before that... they are like 30something... but I have a couple of other questions I've thought of.
Everyday I become more happy about staying here. Yesterday I saw my old neighbor, Mrs. Baggett, who rides her bike everyday and walks everyday with her doggy robin. She's been doing that since I was a youngster and she is really old so it does wonders. She made me smile at that moment and say to myself, maybe I am meant to be here for a while longer. Plus, with the sun coming out more, I have been outside more and I do enjoy the area and the people. I can fog my own thoughts sometimes. a lot of times.
Terry and Hank make me happy to be staying here as well. Terry is just so nice and so is Hank. I think I should be more appreciative of the opportunities I have made for myself and especially opportunities that others have handed to me.
this has become a little more insightful than I had expected. but I have to mention the biggest thing that makes me happy to be here and that's Jason. sometimes it feels too good to be true. well, a lot of times actually.
I am so excited for asheville. I need to get something extra special for my mommy. too bad my pockets are tight lately or I'd buy her something expensive. it's always more fun to be creative, though.
STOP