random ramblings.
I saw two shooting stars on the way home from Brad's last night. While listening to "From A Distance" by Bette Middler. I couldn't help but smile. =)
I kind of don't want school to start. I'm not ready to be responsible again.
I miss Collin. Even though I don't understand him and he doesn't understand me and it's usually pretty frustrating. I miss his company and his passion and love for things he wants most in the world. I need to surround myself with more of those kinds of people.
I go to Sacramento on Thursday. It will be good to get away from this place for a while,
When I come back... I'm training to be a server @ DC's. I'm actually quite terrified.
As soon as Nick gets back from Ecuador... I'm moving to Seattle.
I'm taking @ least five classes this fall... and working.
I like someone way too much. And he doesn't want a girlfriend. So for now I'll just play the girl who pretends she doesn't want a boyfriend. Basically wanting what you can't have sucks the big one.
I'm being shunned by a friend of mine for the third time. That's for sure a shame on me right? What am I doing wrong? I get it. Your roommate is more important. So why do I continue to feel pain where she is concerned when this has happened like 3785764 times before?
I miss my long hair.
I miss William.
I miss coming home to someone @ the end of the day.
I honestly don't remember what being truly happy feels like.
I'll have moments when I think I'm happy... but then I'm just constantly reminded that I'm not. At all.
We'll see if tomorrow's audition changes anything.