Quarterlife Crisis or Autumn Melancholy
I get my car back on the road in two days! WOOOOOO!!! 48 hours or less, the plates will be on and she will be deemed roadworthy.
A year's worth of waiting and anticipation, that struggle will be past, and on the eve of this long awaited moment, my thoughts now turn further down the road. What is the next goal, the next point on the path that I will strive for? My goal in this planning process is to plot a journey to a point where I want to be, yet won't leave me to stagnate (because there is no stagnation, just progression and falling backwards), yet be a journey that I will enjoy. I know the latter is a mindset in which I learn to embrace challenges. I think I'm getting better at that; riding a bicycle to work is a hell of a challenge, but I think I managed that well enough.
I'm not comfortable with the idea of being aimless, and feel that I should have had a plan in place, or at least something more definite than what I do have. I can't help but feel like the grasshopper after spending the summer lazing in the sun of summer, only to find himself woefully unprepared for the winter months ahead. At the same time, I can't predict the changes that come and have yet to come. How could I have anticipated that work would slow down, drying up my income? The best I can do is adapt, because life is a game of adaptation and evolving into a sentient, omnipotent race of energy beings that see all points in time at once a morally and intellectually better, more capable form of oneself. Obstacles, challenges and failures are the stones that must be lifted and thrown aside to be stronger.
So here are the things I want to do long term:
-Get set in a career that will allow me to pay bills, live comfortably and do work which engrosses me and leaves me satisfied and fulfilled. Personal Training and Strength and Conditioning Coaching are the front runners here, though there is the question of whether they can truly sustain my desired lifestyle. Another option is to get into teaching, probably Biology or Health Education, maybe even Physical Education, and pursue coaching and training on the side, maybe even being involved with the school's athletic program.
-Develop skills and pursue knowledge in fields that I've put off. My guitar is quite neglected. I want to relearn Italian, and maybe a few other languages, learn some computer programming, and pursue reading in philosophy and literature.
-Learn to ride and get a motorcycle.
Short Term:
-Explore employment options, whether primary or secondary, so that I can...
-Move out on my own and gain more independence, both financially and personally.
-Possibly play/sing in a band or local original band, because I've had that itch for a while. The goal here isn't international stardom, but I'm not opposed to that either. This may be more a pipe dream than anything.
-Get stronger and compete in powerlifting meets and local strongman comps (if I can find any). A pipe dream spurring off of this is perhaps bodybuilding competitions. Who wants to shave me?
-Travel more. I feel like I haven't gone anywhere geographically. Definitely want to get some road trips in.
Typing this out helped a lot, actually. Now I need to lift, get ready for work, and mentally start preparing an itinerary for next week, as I'm taking some needed time off.
A year's worth of waiting and anticipation, that struggle will be past, and on the eve of this long awaited moment, my thoughts now turn further down the road. What is the next goal, the next point on the path that I will strive for? My goal in this planning process is to plot a journey to a point where I want to be, yet won't leave me to stagnate (because there is no stagnation, just progression and falling backwards), yet be a journey that I will enjoy. I know the latter is a mindset in which I learn to embrace challenges. I think I'm getting better at that; riding a bicycle to work is a hell of a challenge, but I think I managed that well enough.
I'm not comfortable with the idea of being aimless, and feel that I should have had a plan in place, or at least something more definite than what I do have. I can't help but feel like the grasshopper after spending the summer lazing in the sun of summer, only to find himself woefully unprepared for the winter months ahead. At the same time, I can't predict the changes that come and have yet to come. How could I have anticipated that work would slow down, drying up my income? The best I can do is adapt, because life is a game of adaptation and evolving into a sentient, omnipotent race of energy beings that see all points in time at once a morally and intellectually better, more capable form of oneself. Obstacles, challenges and failures are the stones that must be lifted and thrown aside to be stronger.
So here are the things I want to do long term:
-Get set in a career that will allow me to pay bills, live comfortably and do work which engrosses me and leaves me satisfied and fulfilled. Personal Training and Strength and Conditioning Coaching are the front runners here, though there is the question of whether they can truly sustain my desired lifestyle. Another option is to get into teaching, probably Biology or Health Education, maybe even Physical Education, and pursue coaching and training on the side, maybe even being involved with the school's athletic program.
-Develop skills and pursue knowledge in fields that I've put off. My guitar is quite neglected. I want to relearn Italian, and maybe a few other languages, learn some computer programming, and pursue reading in philosophy and literature.
-Learn to ride and get a motorcycle.
Short Term:
-Explore employment options, whether primary or secondary, so that I can...
-Move out on my own and gain more independence, both financially and personally.
-Possibly play/sing in a band or local original band, because I've had that itch for a while. The goal here isn't international stardom, but I'm not opposed to that either. This may be more a pipe dream than anything.
-Get stronger and compete in powerlifting meets and local strongman comps (if I can find any). A pipe dream spurring off of this is perhaps bodybuilding competitions. Who wants to shave me?
-Travel more. I feel like I haven't gone anywhere geographically. Definitely want to get some road trips in.
Typing this out helped a lot, actually. Now I need to lift, get ready for work, and mentally start preparing an itinerary for next week, as I'm taking some needed time off.