Well, then.
Well...Hm, today was a blah kinda day. I was upset all morning about my mom. And I was wanting to go to the hospital with her today, but she wouldn't let me, and now that my sister is here ...(Lord, help me.) I can't go with mom tomorrow. I'm okay with it though, because the more I think about the more I don't want to go to hospital with her, and watch what's being done. Because, well, just because it makes me sad. We haven't talked about her being sick all day, and this is how things usually work out. As she gets sick, we run away from talking about things. Mainly, her being ill. It kinda blows, but every time we talk about it I get depressed all over again. Although, I'm still depressed.
I've been in a good mood three times today, but short times. First was at lunch, because of Cody. He was telling me how he cared, and he was sorry if it didn't seem like he did. He asked if I was okay, and if he could help. When I told him no, he dropped it at that. Hmm, odd. Then after Art, Jesse was talking to me. He seemed to even care, which is odd cause I didn't know I looked that depressed. It was weird, though. He told me to write him a letter, why would he tell ME of all people to write him a letter. Oh well, I did and it's blah. Hee hee, I like blah. And now, I'm in a good mood. I haven't talked to Touhey all semester, except tonight. He called me around Nine, and "Serenated" (SP?) me. It was funny, cause I was on speaker phone, and that's what his mom said. I got a laugh out of that. He asked me if I wanted to go to the talent show, although I don't think it was a date type thing. Then he said he missed talking to me, and that's why he called. Although, he asked me to call him yesterday, AND being me, I forgot. Blah...
You know what surprises me... Cj. He seems so...well, what's the word. NOT SERIOUS? or...hmm, well, he's always messin' and jokin' around. Well, when I saw him in the hallway, he followed me and asked me what was wrong, I told him nothing and he said okay, and then, without another word, hugged me. That didn't put me in a "good mood" but it made me smile.
Tim came over around the same time Sarah did. Tim is my cousin who recently got out of Prison for the fifth time. Sarah was telling me how she didn't know if she could take me to Interskate tomorrow nite, but Tim said he would. I hope Tim has changed.
Anyways, I feel like Blah. B-L-A-H. Hee hee, I'm going to take a shower.
Later.
I've been in a good mood three times today, but short times. First was at lunch, because of Cody. He was telling me how he cared, and he was sorry if it didn't seem like he did. He asked if I was okay, and if he could help. When I told him no, he dropped it at that. Hmm, odd. Then after Art, Jesse was talking to me. He seemed to even care, which is odd cause I didn't know I looked that depressed. It was weird, though. He told me to write him a letter, why would he tell ME of all people to write him a letter. Oh well, I did and it's blah. Hee hee, I like blah. And now, I'm in a good mood. I haven't talked to Touhey all semester, except tonight. He called me around Nine, and "Serenated" (SP?) me. It was funny, cause I was on speaker phone, and that's what his mom said. I got a laugh out of that. He asked me if I wanted to go to the talent show, although I don't think it was a date type thing. Then he said he missed talking to me, and that's why he called. Although, he asked me to call him yesterday, AND being me, I forgot. Blah...
You know what surprises me... Cj. He seems so...well, what's the word. NOT SERIOUS? or...hmm, well, he's always messin' and jokin' around. Well, when I saw him in the hallway, he followed me and asked me what was wrong, I told him nothing and he said okay, and then, without another word, hugged me. That didn't put me in a "good mood" but it made me smile.
Tim came over around the same time Sarah did. Tim is my cousin who recently got out of Prison for the fifth time. Sarah was telling me how she didn't know if she could take me to Interskate tomorrow nite, but Tim said he would. I hope Tim has changed.
Anyways, I feel like Blah. B-L-A-H. Hee hee, I'm going to take a shower.
Later.