Today was full of...blah.
I like that word..."Blah" Everyone keeps asking me who this guy I like is. Well, I can't tell you guys on Live Journal. Cause then I'd be stupid (So, Amber I've told you, and Nikki Email me)
For starters, I talked to Zack for like two hours on the phone. Which lately, I haven't talked on the phone in a while, so... yeah. I wish I could say so much more on this subject...but it seems as if the subject is changing.
I made Alyse mad at me today. Not intentionally, but she read my LJ, which I didn't think she didn't. It was this little quiz thing that listed my friends, and I forgot to put her and Tiff. Anyways, I didn't do anything wrong, and she was just...I don't know.
Afterwards, I went to Kye's house. I was bored half of the time, and didn't feel good. I went to church and had fun... Trent, Dalton, Carl, Rance, (and even Amber) and Mr. Carl dog piled on me! TWICE! Argh. The lesson was a good lesson tonight. It made sence to me. It was how you shouldn't say or do anything to people out of anger. And how you should forgive those who have hurted you in the past and present. I don't know... it's not as easy as said. I asked a question, "How can you forgive someone who hasn't asked for it?" Hense, my sister. My evil sister. I mean, I know it is retarded, but hey you're the one reading this anyways. When I was little she used to abuse me. Not just fight like sister fight. But really abuse me. I hated and still hate her for it. She's never once said sorry for anything, all that time she was pinning me down and punching me. Or slamming me into walls, the thing that hurt worse is.. I've always wanted a *(blood)* sister. I never had that, I know it's retarded, but it makes sence to me. She treated me like she was my mother and my mom acted like the father in the family, you know the one who goes to work and then sleeps for hours after coming home? Yeah. And every time my sister wants to come visit us, my mom talks to me and tells me how Sarah (my sister) is sorry, and she's too proud to ever admit it. Well, emotionally she abused me too. In my opinon she's the reason why my self- esteme is really low now. When you grow up hearing it constantly, "You're such a pain in my ass, you good for nothing loser who always gets her way. I wish you'd die and blah blah blah." Yeah, you get the point. You kinda start to believe it. But anyways, sometimes I wish she'd just tell me sorry and really mean it; I wish she'd just tell me I'm not some stupid brat.
WoW. That's one long paragraph. I want to make a new Live Journal Username. Like "The good and the bad" But that's really long. And then get a yin and yang picture...I think I've already talked about this before. But yeah.
After church, I went back to Kye's house. Which...wasn't fun. We went there played King Of Fighters for a sec, and then...walked to Josh's house. After that I got to go to Amber's house! Yay for me. I always have fun with Jana, and Ms. Diane, (her sis and mom)and of course Amber herself. I like her dogs, they always seem to make me laugh. Like Dobby, he attacks the floor like it's going to bite him or something. We ate another one of Amber's odd sensational foods. Hot dogs with nacho chips and Spray cheese. Yum....cheese. From a can. jk. Then we watched Envy. It was an okay movie. But yeah, that was the most fun I've had today.
Anyways, I'm tired. Real tired. Blah! (Hee, hee. I still like that word. And YOU can't have it! IT'S MINE. Deal with it, sonny.)
Don't ask. Another one of "mai" moments.
For starters, I talked to Zack for like two hours on the phone. Which lately, I haven't talked on the phone in a while, so... yeah. I wish I could say so much more on this subject...but it seems as if the subject is changing.
I made Alyse mad at me today. Not intentionally, but she read my LJ, which I didn't think she didn't. It was this little quiz thing that listed my friends, and I forgot to put her and Tiff. Anyways, I didn't do anything wrong, and she was just...I don't know.
Afterwards, I went to Kye's house. I was bored half of the time, and didn't feel good. I went to church and had fun... Trent, Dalton, Carl, Rance, (and even Amber) and Mr. Carl dog piled on me! TWICE! Argh. The lesson was a good lesson tonight. It made sence to me. It was how you shouldn't say or do anything to people out of anger. And how you should forgive those who have hurted you in the past and present. I don't know... it's not as easy as said. I asked a question, "How can you forgive someone who hasn't asked for it?" Hense, my sister. My evil sister. I mean, I know it is retarded, but hey you're the one reading this anyways. When I was little she used to abuse me. Not just fight like sister fight. But really abuse me. I hated and still hate her for it. She's never once said sorry for anything, all that time she was pinning me down and punching me. Or slamming me into walls, the thing that hurt worse is.. I've always wanted a *(blood)* sister. I never had that, I know it's retarded, but it makes sence to me. She treated me like she was my mother and my mom acted like the father in the family, you know the one who goes to work and then sleeps for hours after coming home? Yeah. And every time my sister wants to come visit us, my mom talks to me and tells me how Sarah (my sister) is sorry, and she's too proud to ever admit it. Well, emotionally she abused me too. In my opinon she's the reason why my self- esteme is really low now. When you grow up hearing it constantly, "You're such a pain in my ass, you good for nothing loser who always gets her way. I wish you'd die and blah blah blah." Yeah, you get the point. You kinda start to believe it. But anyways, sometimes I wish she'd just tell me sorry and really mean it; I wish she'd just tell me I'm not some stupid brat.
WoW. That's one long paragraph. I want to make a new Live Journal Username. Like "The good and the bad" But that's really long. And then get a yin and yang picture...I think I've already talked about this before. But yeah.
After church, I went back to Kye's house. Which...wasn't fun. We went there played King Of Fighters for a sec, and then...walked to Josh's house. After that I got to go to Amber's house! Yay for me. I always have fun with Jana, and Ms. Diane, (her sis and mom)and of course Amber herself. I like her dogs, they always seem to make me laugh. Like Dobby, he attacks the floor like it's going to bite him or something. We ate another one of Amber's odd sensational foods. Hot dogs with nacho chips and Spray cheese. Yum....cheese. From a can. jk. Then we watched Envy. It was an okay movie. But yeah, that was the most fun I've had today.
Anyways, I'm tired. Real tired. Blah! (Hee, hee. I still like that word. And YOU can't have it! IT'S MINE. Deal with it, sonny.)
Don't ask. Another one of "mai" moments.