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I mentioned earlier that i wasnt going to write in this anymore but it turns out i have too much too say and nowhere to say it
live journal i noticed for many is a way of writing an indirect letter to someone.
because we all know who reads our live journals and in that realization we all know that we can say things specifically to taht person in ways that we dare not actually say it.
if you catch my drift.
i m way to impulsive. its a fact of my life. i`ve always gone with the flow and never really thought of the consequences. and i`ve rarely in my life regretted something i`ve done. maybe its merely my pride and ego which keeps me so. maybe its just the fact that im a stubborn asshole sometimes. how ever passively that happens to be.
and i`ve just for teh first time really felt regret. i`ve regretted things in the past but not to the point that its hurting me. not to the point where i have that uncomfortable beat in my heart that makes you feel as if life would be better if you ripped open that chest and set that oh so precious muscle free to suffer by itself.
as i`ve said i`ve just recently had that feeling .
this is new for me.
i dont like it.
right now i just want to go to the girl who i really loved . right now i want to stop the sorrow which is felt not only by me .
i want that warm rain.
i realize now just how good i had it. and just how stupid i really am. people seem to have this misconception about my intelligence. i`m really not that smart when it comes right down to it. i threw away happiness.
thats the dumbest thing a person can do. mind you this is no plea for forgivness because i`m beyond that.
i dont think that i can be forgiven. i dont think that i can pull of one of those romantic comedy happy endings. not this time.
je pense que j`ai perdu quelque chose que j`ai besoin. je pense que j`ai perdu une persone qui j`ai besoin.
c`est triste.
je veux marcher sous la pluie chaude avec elle
mais je pense que c`est ne vas pas arriver
good news i can speak a lot more french now
live journal i noticed for many is a way of writing an indirect letter to someone.
because we all know who reads our live journals and in that realization we all know that we can say things specifically to taht person in ways that we dare not actually say it.
if you catch my drift.
i m way to impulsive. its a fact of my life. i`ve always gone with the flow and never really thought of the consequences. and i`ve rarely in my life regretted something i`ve done. maybe its merely my pride and ego which keeps me so. maybe its just the fact that im a stubborn asshole sometimes. how ever passively that happens to be.
and i`ve just for teh first time really felt regret. i`ve regretted things in the past but not to the point that its hurting me. not to the point where i have that uncomfortable beat in my heart that makes you feel as if life would be better if you ripped open that chest and set that oh so precious muscle free to suffer by itself.
as i`ve said i`ve just recently had that feeling .
this is new for me.
i dont like it.
right now i just want to go to the girl who i really loved . right now i want to stop the sorrow which is felt not only by me .
i want that warm rain.
i realize now just how good i had it. and just how stupid i really am. people seem to have this misconception about my intelligence. i`m really not that smart when it comes right down to it. i threw away happiness.
thats the dumbest thing a person can do. mind you this is no plea for forgivness because i`m beyond that.
i dont think that i can be forgiven. i dont think that i can pull of one of those romantic comedy happy endings. not this time.
je pense que j`ai perdu quelque chose que j`ai besoin. je pense que j`ai perdu une persone qui j`ai besoin.
c`est triste.
je veux marcher sous la pluie chaude avec elle
mais je pense que c`est ne vas pas arriver
good news i can speak a lot more french now