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i have a lot to write about. i haven't had the internet since the end of May when my dad moved, to explain my absence. things have been good for the most part. better than the past 2 years, at least.
Dave is out the picture which alleviated a lot of built up aggression and anxiety. i'll never make the same mistakes i made with him again. i don't know, i cared a lot about him and i let him get away with a lot. it was so stupid of me to become a pushover for him. i'm really glad it's over. the only long lasting negative effect of the whole ordeal was that it killed my libido. i shouldn't be the one suffering, you know! he's the bastard..and the only negative story i have to write about.
one other negative thing is that i got a tower in my last tarot reading with Lizzie. this means that soon, my life with fall apart because of a personally catastrophic event and i'll have to start from scratch...the GOOD thing about this is that soon after i will find a true love and it will the best. i'm taking things in stride though. i get a pit in my stomach and think it's going to be something that happens to my mother, but i don't want to be presumptuous or expectant of anything. knowing the future is definitely not the superpower i would choose.
work gives me the same old headaches. heather left and mass runs the store...he's worthless. the servers and cooks run the show. he has no influence, besides when he occasionally orders some product. ALAS, i need a new job.
okay, so NOW i have nothing negative to say.
i started directing a play with Lauren(James' girlfriend), and Joline(a good buddy of mine). we're doing a spring musical production of Willy Wonka Jr. it's been tough, but completely worth it. i'm not going to be compensated, unless the school decides that we are...buuut, nothing's been done yet. maybe they want to see how good it is and what kind of money it makes them. they are a catholic school, so they're pretty judgmental.
did you know that sexual molesters like to give children hugs? and they are most likely to be childless, and seen waiting outside of schools for no reason at all. they have all employees and volunteers take an online course to prove i was not a child molester. funniest hour and a half of my life(besides Superbad). i'm also not allowed to give children hugs. sidehugs only. they're hugs from ONLY ONE side of the body.
anyway, the kids have been exhausting to work with. it's hard to keep them focused, is all i have to say. everyone knows it's true. they go off on tangents at any granted opportunity. we're finally done blocking the show, so we have two months to mold everything and everyone into place. character development with the Buckets has been pretty unsuccessful. these simple, low-toned characters aren't interesting enough for these kids to perform, i guess. they'd prefer the Veruca Salts and Violet Beauregardes. i've got to get them to crack out of their shells. ANY IDEAS?! NICK!!!!! HELENA?!?!?!?!? ANY IDEAS?!!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!!!!!!!!! i need some games/activities to warm them up.
i'm thoroughly thrilled with even being involved. i think i might have asked to help out right before Lauren and Jo offered, but i quickly accepted. i've been dying to release some creative energy. i was starting to think i didn't have any. it's the best i could do while i wait to go back to school. hopefully they hire Jo so i can work with her next year when Lauren leaves. all we have to do is continue to raise funds and keep the kids involved and interested. the gas kills me, but it's worth it. i hope i get some money, even though i'd be fine with not.
i'm thinking about finding a show and auditioning. it makes me miss theatre a whole lot.
i'm going to the Bahamas in a month and a half. my Aunt invited me to help out with Grandpa. he's in a wheel chair and she wants to go into universal with my cousin, Shannon, and her kids, so i'm basically getting a free vacation to spend one day with him. i'm excited about it! not just the one day, but the whole trip. i don't spend nearly enough time with my grandfather, let alone the rest of them, and we all know he's on his way out, so to be able to experience the whole thing with him will be one for the books. i can't wait to learn more about him. i have a lot of questions that i could ask.
i think my cousin's kids will be in child care a lot. i know my Aunt will want to relax, and me and Shannon are going to be getting plastered and gallivanting all over the ship. then we have our grandfather for comedic relief, if there's isn't already one one the ship. haha. it's going to be a good time.
i'm also going to visit Ashley in NY mid-March. her mom is having a serious operation and i need to be there for her if anything goes wrong. i have a good idea of how messy she's going to be if anything happens, and my presence was requested, so...i have to.
after that, in August, i'm heading to South Carolina with Hope and staying AT her sister-in-laws parents place. i hear it's huge. and they're going to feed me. all i have to pay for is doing things, like going to hold/play with tiger cubs. TIGERCUBSFUCKYEA!!! our vacation in Oceancity with the shit, so i've determined that Hope is a damn good travel buddy. i'm looking forward to it. we still have to look through brochures.
what else...i got a cat! he's almost a year now. and his name's Walter. he's sitting next to the monitor starring at the cursor. he's been here for awhile, now. it's not distracting anymore.
i've become very fluent in guitar hero clicking. mario galaxy is almost beat; i have 115 stars, with a MYSTERY WORLD left to unlock. don't tell me what it is, i've purposely left myself uninformed because i like surprises. super smash bros. comes out in 3 days. it's going to be better than the last one, for sure. haha. fable and starcraft 2 and spore are keeping me anxious to see how my mac handles games. it's gonna be sweet.
free internet is sweet, too. airports on macs are a godsend. the lord said it himself unto the people as told by his father. it is also sweet that i am now able to load my iPod into my iTunes library. you're jealous, i bet.
i'm going to start going to the gym three days a week, as of wednesday. i've dwindled my cigarette smoking to two a day, and i'm cutting that out completely by next week. with that, i managed to run 4 miles on the treadmill yesterday. i ran the first 2, only walking for an eighth of the second mile, and the second 2 walking for a quarter mile. amazing. i think i'm going to keep up with full body workouts until my body wants to collapse. i think starting out tough will only make me stronger, so why the hell not. i know i'm not fragile as glass, so watch out bitches, i'm gettin' tough. knock you on yo' ass before i can tell yo' dumb ass to watch out!
oh, and also..Ryan has moved back to town. this has allowed us to start talking and hanging out again. i missed him a lot. he's taught us all how to smoke bowls using a magnifying glass. it's VERY interesting.
tomorrow Hope is having a VIP gathering at her place. her folks are going on vacation AGAIN, so that's tomorrow and the REAL party's on saturday night.
i think that's everything. cool.
Dave is out the picture which alleviated a lot of built up aggression and anxiety. i'll never make the same mistakes i made with him again. i don't know, i cared a lot about him and i let him get away with a lot. it was so stupid of me to become a pushover for him. i'm really glad it's over. the only long lasting negative effect of the whole ordeal was that it killed my libido. i shouldn't be the one suffering, you know! he's the bastard..and the only negative story i have to write about.
one other negative thing is that i got a tower in my last tarot reading with Lizzie. this means that soon, my life with fall apart because of a personally catastrophic event and i'll have to start from scratch...the GOOD thing about this is that soon after i will find a true love and it will the best. i'm taking things in stride though. i get a pit in my stomach and think it's going to be something that happens to my mother, but i don't want to be presumptuous or expectant of anything. knowing the future is definitely not the superpower i would choose.
work gives me the same old headaches. heather left and mass runs the store...he's worthless. the servers and cooks run the show. he has no influence, besides when he occasionally orders some product. ALAS, i need a new job.
okay, so NOW i have nothing negative to say.
i started directing a play with Lauren(James' girlfriend), and Joline(a good buddy of mine). we're doing a spring musical production of Willy Wonka Jr. it's been tough, but completely worth it. i'm not going to be compensated, unless the school decides that we are...buuut, nothing's been done yet. maybe they want to see how good it is and what kind of money it makes them. they are a catholic school, so they're pretty judgmental.
did you know that sexual molesters like to give children hugs? and they are most likely to be childless, and seen waiting outside of schools for no reason at all. they have all employees and volunteers take an online course to prove i was not a child molester. funniest hour and a half of my life(besides Superbad). i'm also not allowed to give children hugs. sidehugs only. they're hugs from ONLY ONE side of the body.
anyway, the kids have been exhausting to work with. it's hard to keep them focused, is all i have to say. everyone knows it's true. they go off on tangents at any granted opportunity. we're finally done blocking the show, so we have two months to mold everything and everyone into place. character development with the Buckets has been pretty unsuccessful. these simple, low-toned characters aren't interesting enough for these kids to perform, i guess. they'd prefer the Veruca Salts and Violet Beauregardes. i've got to get them to crack out of their shells. ANY IDEAS?! NICK!!!!! HELENA?!?!?!?!? ANY IDEAS?!!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!!!!!!!!! i need some games/activities to warm them up.
i'm thoroughly thrilled with even being involved. i think i might have asked to help out right before Lauren and Jo offered, but i quickly accepted. i've been dying to release some creative energy. i was starting to think i didn't have any. it's the best i could do while i wait to go back to school. hopefully they hire Jo so i can work with her next year when Lauren leaves. all we have to do is continue to raise funds and keep the kids involved and interested. the gas kills me, but it's worth it. i hope i get some money, even though i'd be fine with not.
i'm thinking about finding a show and auditioning. it makes me miss theatre a whole lot.
i'm going to the Bahamas in a month and a half. my Aunt invited me to help out with Grandpa. he's in a wheel chair and she wants to go into universal with my cousin, Shannon, and her kids, so i'm basically getting a free vacation to spend one day with him. i'm excited about it! not just the one day, but the whole trip. i don't spend nearly enough time with my grandfather, let alone the rest of them, and we all know he's on his way out, so to be able to experience the whole thing with him will be one for the books. i can't wait to learn more about him. i have a lot of questions that i could ask.
i think my cousin's kids will be in child care a lot. i know my Aunt will want to relax, and me and Shannon are going to be getting plastered and gallivanting all over the ship. then we have our grandfather for comedic relief, if there's isn't already one one the ship. haha. it's going to be a good time.
i'm also going to visit Ashley in NY mid-March. her mom is having a serious operation and i need to be there for her if anything goes wrong. i have a good idea of how messy she's going to be if anything happens, and my presence was requested, so...i have to.
after that, in August, i'm heading to South Carolina with Hope and staying AT her sister-in-laws parents place. i hear it's huge. and they're going to feed me. all i have to pay for is doing things, like going to hold/play with tiger cubs. TIGERCUBSFUCKYEA!!! our vacation in Oceancity with the shit, so i've determined that Hope is a damn good travel buddy. i'm looking forward to it. we still have to look through brochures.
what else...i got a cat! he's almost a year now. and his name's Walter. he's sitting next to the monitor starring at the cursor. he's been here for awhile, now. it's not distracting anymore.
i've become very fluent in guitar hero clicking. mario galaxy is almost beat; i have 115 stars, with a MYSTERY WORLD left to unlock. don't tell me what it is, i've purposely left myself uninformed because i like surprises. super smash bros. comes out in 3 days. it's going to be better than the last one, for sure. haha. fable and starcraft 2 and spore are keeping me anxious to see how my mac handles games. it's gonna be sweet.
free internet is sweet, too. airports on macs are a godsend. the lord said it himself unto the people as told by his father. it is also sweet that i am now able to load my iPod into my iTunes library. you're jealous, i bet.
i'm going to start going to the gym three days a week, as of wednesday. i've dwindled my cigarette smoking to two a day, and i'm cutting that out completely by next week. with that, i managed to run 4 miles on the treadmill yesterday. i ran the first 2, only walking for an eighth of the second mile, and the second 2 walking for a quarter mile. amazing. i think i'm going to keep up with full body workouts until my body wants to collapse. i think starting out tough will only make me stronger, so why the hell not. i know i'm not fragile as glass, so watch out bitches, i'm gettin' tough. knock you on yo' ass before i can tell yo' dumb ass to watch out!
oh, and also..Ryan has moved back to town. this has allowed us to start talking and hanging out again. i missed him a lot. he's taught us all how to smoke bowls using a magnifying glass. it's VERY interesting.
tomorrow Hope is having a VIP gathering at her place. her folks are going on vacation AGAIN, so that's tomorrow and the REAL party's on saturday night.
i think that's everything. cool.