dreamings
I dreamt last night that E. broke up with me.
I awoke rationalizing that since he invited me to an event as important as his sister's bridal shower, it wouldn't make sense. Big steps like that just don't happen when the guy really deep down inside is just plain tired of you.
Still I know that even though I was his first, I probably won't be his last.
That terrifies me.
I feel how it looks outside.
Confused, stormy.
There's no reason for me to be upset but tell that to my Id.
I don't want to be alone right now.
My house feels cold, and not altogether empty but strange all the same.
It's probably the weather.
Thats what it has to be.
I awoke rationalizing that since he invited me to an event as important as his sister's bridal shower, it wouldn't make sense. Big steps like that just don't happen when the guy really deep down inside is just plain tired of you.
Still I know that even though I was his first, I probably won't be his last.
That terrifies me.
I feel how it looks outside.
Confused, stormy.
There's no reason for me to be upset but tell that to my Id.
I don't want to be alone right now.
My house feels cold, and not altogether empty but strange all the same.
It's probably the weather.
Thats what it has to be.