cameron
Sleep yet again is an escape for the weak
Current mood:awakened finally
i won't be sleeping well anytime soon
my dreams as of recent have been rotten and corrupted
twisted like a disease uncurable
i've been tearing myself apart
peice by piece
i can not describe to you the way i feel, so broken
i can not make you understand how time consuming it is to fight yourself
hour by hour
how all you can think about is how rotten to the core you really were all along
i was selfish
i was wrong
i was human
i was never perfect
i never will be perfect
i should have fought for you
for us
but i was so consumed in that self hatred i saw nothing but disdain
i could see nothing but the trust i had lost
the trust i need to work hard to regain
please don't tell me i am too late
i can't stop thinking about us
about what we shared
what you gave and i don't want to lose
how i wanted and still want to spend my life with you
you are still my everything
i just got sidetracked
in all honesty
yeah i was scared
yeah i felt alone
i questioned if this was all real
i was scared that i found you so easily
i was scared of our future
i may put on a brave face
but i am so afraid
i am still so scared
but not of those things anymore
now its losing you that scares more than anything in my entire life
will you let me fight for you?
Michael Cameron Kilby
I am in love with you
I know this now more than ever
i believe this
i believe in us
i just hope you can see it
and that i am not too late