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ok its thursday and it is already horrible i cant stop crying and its all my fault cause i get mad so easily...but i had every right to be upset...but i am sick of making him upset and i just want his pain to end im sick of always hurting him and his life would be so much better without me and it hurts me to say that but it is how i feel and its the truth...im just sick of living already my life has been nothing but a fucking joke...its just all lies and bull shit i just want it to end already...i dont get it...why am i alive when all i do is hurt people??? what the fuck is my purpose for living??? i just want it all to end...the only thing i have done in my life is hurt the people who i care about most and i cant handle it...i just want it all to end...i want to stop hurting people...i especilly want to stop hurting the one person who i love more than anything...but i dont know where to start...or how to...i made him so upset and he thinks that i hate him and i dont...its just that i didnt like the fact that he was hiding something from me and it really hurt me...but it looks like it hurt him more than it hurt me...i made him cry and and that made me feel so fucking horrible...i dont like it when he is upset...but for some reason that is all i seem to do is upset him and i dont want to upset him anymore...and the only way i can stop upseting him is for me to be gone and die cause then he wont have anymore problems and his life would be so much easier and less stressful...ever since i came into his life all i have caused him is stress and pain and i dont see how i could do that to such a wonderful person...he is so great he shouldnt have to go through everything that i put him through...he deserves someone who makes him happy rather than someone who makes him cry...he should be happy not sad...and i always make him sad and upset and hurt and everything else that is bad...he should just break up with me and find someone new and better...someone that will make him happy...fuck this...fuck life...fuck everything
WHY WAS I PUT HERE
Life cannot be typed in words
LIfe is to painful to express
What the hell am i doing here?
When i have been nothing but trouble
Felt nothing but pain
Why the hell was i put here?
WHY? WHY?
When im only going to give up my life
Because my emotions are to overwhelming.
WHY WAS I PUT HERE
Life cannot be typed in words
LIfe is to painful to express
What the hell am i doing here?
When i have been nothing but trouble
Felt nothing but pain
Why the hell was i put here?
WHY? WHY?
When im only going to give up my life
Because my emotions are to overwhelming.