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something is wrong with my eye...its like scatched n all red...looks like i smoked a lot of weed lol so yesterday i went to the doctors with my sister n mom...got some drops for it...which means now im a sexy bitch cuz i get to wear my glasses all day NOT!!! lol i feel soooo ugly right now its not funny....i look pale as hell...well to me i do....n i feel so out of shape n ugly espically when i wear my glasses....n since i have to wear them that means no goin out for alicia!!
also me n my lil sis went to the mall yesterday after the doctors...i had a lot of fun hangin out with her....us singing to music in the car...n laughin our asses of at ppl....saw someone at the mall...lol whos a joke...lol n my sis also bought me a yummy preztel!!
another thing that has been bothering me so much is that the fact that my bf has been with so many ppl....i cant get it out of my head...n i could be replaced like that cuz all he would have to do is go thru his phone n call one of those dumb hoes...ive also been thinking if hes been with so many girls...n good lookin ones why would he choose me to be serious with? i mean i guess i kind of feel special that after all those ppl he choose me....but than it bugs the hell out of me that when we do go out to the bar like everytime he see like 5 or more girls hes been with...or every girl hes talked to hes done stuff with!! i dunno ive had too much time to myself so ive been thinking way to much....
today my baby took me out to lunch :) to my fav resturant!! had some interesting convos.....realized some things about myself...i also realized that i need to change some things about myself right away or i could loose the one person that i truely care about n that means everything to me...i want things to work between us...today i was thinking seriously could spend the rest of my life with him....n i would be happy n satisfied...just when he looks at me i get butterflys in my stomach....u have no idea how much u mean to me!!
i also miss my mommy....im so used to seeing her all the time...n now i hardly ever...n shes living all alone now...expect for when my dad goes n stays with her sometimes but i could tell yesterday when we met her at the doctors she was so lonely....
on the other hand...i hate living so far from my baby...like 45 min....n the drive back n forth sucks....n its so weird to live in a house with my 2 sisters n brother...n my dad stays there sometims but hardly ever...
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