attention whore.
My head is stuffed up with useless junk; my mind feels blank.
What do you want to talk about, Pip? School? Work? Tyler? Yeah, yeah. You do it all the time and it's never distinct enough (events or detail-wise) to further you at all.
People and (the dreaded word) society -- why is it dreaded, pip? You must use it too much, to believe that everybody else uses it too much for something to place blame on and look educated. important. -- are so similar or so different, which makes them similar in the end, to some degree. But I don't know a damn thing, and I don't think too much, and I'm not even disconnected. I'm probably trying too hard. I don't mean to, the thing is it's 3:16am and I want to go to bed, but instead I found myself walking out of my room and sitting on the kitchen table, reading the newspaper. There was a 'strawberry social' Saturday, from 2-4pm.
I don't have anything in common with the people I talk to, I said, in a completely amateur state of mind. I think too much of myself, and that's probably entirely obvious or entirely hidden - I pick the former. I think I'm better off somewhere else, and that the reason I'm not making that happen is because of restraints I don't have control over. Examples just better illustrate my faults, and I'm busy thinking highly of myself and pretending I lack immaturity, idiocy.
Oh, but Pip, the poor writing and the mass of out-of-place words do it for you, dear. Oh, but Pip, the poor writing suggests I'm trying to accomplish something here. I wouldn't say so. Stream of consciousness.
It showcases my lack of assertion and excess of ideality to say I want to up and leave. Is that immature, really? Running away sounds childish, but everybody wants to leave things one way and start them up in another. Pip there isn't anything original with you and you let that bother you.
Liar. If it bothered you, how many times would you get up the next morning and think the same things and follow through with the same actions? It's all you do. Because you're unoriginal Pip, or because if you don't, you're just creating more problem for yourself in the future? Being careless doesn't make you different, and that probably isn't what you mean. But it sounds it.
There's too many questions in this. No wonder you don't think properly, you don't know anything for sure. Nobody does. That isn't what you mean either. Switching between "you" and "I" makes me wonder. Me?
Just drop it.
I write the entries like this with my eyes closed.
What do you want to talk about, Pip? School? Work? Tyler? Yeah, yeah. You do it all the time and it's never distinct enough (events or detail-wise) to further you at all.
People and (the dreaded word) society -- why is it dreaded, pip? You must use it too much, to believe that everybody else uses it too much for something to place blame on and look educated. important. -- are so similar or so different, which makes them similar in the end, to some degree. But I don't know a damn thing, and I don't think too much, and I'm not even disconnected. I'm probably trying too hard. I don't mean to, the thing is it's 3:16am and I want to go to bed, but instead I found myself walking out of my room and sitting on the kitchen table, reading the newspaper. There was a 'strawberry social' Saturday, from 2-4pm.
I don't have anything in common with the people I talk to, I said, in a completely amateur state of mind. I think too much of myself, and that's probably entirely obvious or entirely hidden - I pick the former. I think I'm better off somewhere else, and that the reason I'm not making that happen is because of restraints I don't have control over. Examples just better illustrate my faults, and I'm busy thinking highly of myself and pretending I lack immaturity, idiocy.
Oh, but Pip, the poor writing and the mass of out-of-place words do it for you, dear. Oh, but Pip, the poor writing suggests I'm trying to accomplish something here. I wouldn't say so. Stream of consciousness.
It showcases my lack of assertion and excess of ideality to say I want to up and leave. Is that immature, really? Running away sounds childish, but everybody wants to leave things one way and start them up in another. Pip there isn't anything original with you and you let that bother you.
Liar. If it bothered you, how many times would you get up the next morning and think the same things and follow through with the same actions? It's all you do. Because you're unoriginal Pip, or because if you don't, you're just creating more problem for yourself in the future? Being careless doesn't make you different, and that probably isn't what you mean. But it sounds it.
There's too many questions in this. No wonder you don't think properly, you don't know anything for sure. Nobody does. That isn't what you mean either. Switching between "you" and "I" makes me wonder. Me?
Just drop it.
I write the entries like this with my eyes closed.