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Fear, Jealousy, Negativity
The three main things that fuck up.. relationships.. friendships.. and life in general.
We all have fear right? hell, who doesn't.. I guess all of the fear changes in time.. whether you're afraid your boyfriend will leave you, if your best friend will chose her boyfriend over you.. or if your just afraid of hieghts, spiders, or bugs.. if there's anything i've learned in my 15 years of living it's that fear fucks everything up.. even if everythings so perfect at the time.. that little tiny bit fear can turn the littlest thing into something huge that you'll never forget.. and maybe never forgive yourself for.
Jealousy can fall into so many catorgories as well.. you could be jealous that you're boyfriend/girlfriend talks to other girls.. or being jealous because your best friend hangs out with other people more than you.. or jealous because your sister or brother got more for christmas than you did ( ect ) not only does jealousy mess things up, but it proves to the person that you can't trust them.. and there's nothing worse than that..
Last but not least, negativity.. i'm sure you've all heard the saying "it's all in what you believe" right? well for the slow ones.. it basically means.. if you think negative.. you're guna get negative.. wow, that saying honestly couldn't be anymore true.. for example, who's ever worried about their boyfriend/girlfriend breaking up with you all the time? and you're always thinking negativly.. like "omg what if he leaves me" blah blah fucking blah..? and then the next thing you know.. he/she dumps you.. can anyone guess why? ding ding ding.. it's because you thought so negativly about the situation.
The moral of the story- I hate fear, jealousy, and negativity with a passion.
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Besides that, yesterday brian and zach picked me up and we went to heather's and hung out for a litle bit and then we all went to steak and shake, and seeing how brian's truck only holds 3 people and there was 4 people going, we were all sqiushed.. zach was driving.. heather was in the middle and i was on brian's lap.. anyway, we got there.. and ate and stuff. then it started raining so we ran to the truck and when we got in, brian accedently slammed 4 of my fingers in the door, omg i screamed.. lol shows how much my boyfriend loves me huh? lol jk. fortunatly.. none of them broke but i think i fucked up my middle finger.. it's swollon and hurts like a bitch. so yeah then we went back to heather's and me and brian hung out in her room for a little bit while heather and zach watched tv or something in th eliving room.. ( 30 mins, brian! wahoo! go us! lmao ) so then zach and brian left at like 12 and then heather and i talked for a little bit and then we went to sleep.
To someone ( you know who you are ) : wow.. i guess you saw this one coming huh? as always.. you are ALWAYS right.. i guess i wouldn't admit it because I never wanted it to happen, but it's not up to me. I know that you wish we never met.. and I wish i could say that same.. but i sat down thinking of what would have happend if we never did meet.. and i thought how lost i would honestly be.. so, thanks for everything you did for me in the past. i hope everything in life turns out great for you.. and remember one day.. even if we haven't talked in like 20 years.. you can track me down and call me if you ever decide you need advice or to want to talk or anything.. good luck down the road in life.
The three main things that fuck up.. relationships.. friendships.. and life in general.
We all have fear right? hell, who doesn't.. I guess all of the fear changes in time.. whether you're afraid your boyfriend will leave you, if your best friend will chose her boyfriend over you.. or if your just afraid of hieghts, spiders, or bugs.. if there's anything i've learned in my 15 years of living it's that fear fucks everything up.. even if everythings so perfect at the time.. that little tiny bit fear can turn the littlest thing into something huge that you'll never forget.. and maybe never forgive yourself for.
Jealousy can fall into so many catorgories as well.. you could be jealous that you're boyfriend/girlfriend talks to other girls.. or being jealous because your best friend hangs out with other people more than you.. or jealous because your sister or brother got more for christmas than you did ( ect ) not only does jealousy mess things up, but it proves to the person that you can't trust them.. and there's nothing worse than that..
Last but not least, negativity.. i'm sure you've all heard the saying "it's all in what you believe" right? well for the slow ones.. it basically means.. if you think negative.. you're guna get negative.. wow, that saying honestly couldn't be anymore true.. for example, who's ever worried about their boyfriend/girlfriend breaking up with you all the time? and you're always thinking negativly.. like "omg what if he leaves me" blah blah fucking blah..? and then the next thing you know.. he/she dumps you.. can anyone guess why? ding ding ding.. it's because you thought so negativly about the situation.
The moral of the story- I hate fear, jealousy, and negativity with a passion.
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Besides that, yesterday brian and zach picked me up and we went to heather's and hung out for a litle bit and then we all went to steak and shake, and seeing how brian's truck only holds 3 people and there was 4 people going, we were all sqiushed.. zach was driving.. heather was in the middle and i was on brian's lap.. anyway, we got there.. and ate and stuff. then it started raining so we ran to the truck and when we got in, brian accedently slammed 4 of my fingers in the door, omg i screamed.. lol shows how much my boyfriend loves me huh? lol jk. fortunatly.. none of them broke but i think i fucked up my middle finger.. it's swollon and hurts like a bitch. so yeah then we went back to heather's and me and brian hung out in her room for a little bit while heather and zach watched tv or something in th eliving room.. ( 30 mins, brian! wahoo! go us! lmao ) so then zach and brian left at like 12 and then heather and i talked for a little bit and then we went to sleep.
To someone ( you know who you are ) : wow.. i guess you saw this one coming huh? as always.. you are ALWAYS right.. i guess i wouldn't admit it because I never wanted it to happen, but it's not up to me. I know that you wish we never met.. and I wish i could say that same.. but i sat down thinking of what would have happend if we never did meet.. and i thought how lost i would honestly be.. so, thanks for everything you did for me in the past. i hope everything in life turns out great for you.. and remember one day.. even if we haven't talked in like 20 years.. you can track me down and call me if you ever decide you need advice or to want to talk or anything.. good luck down the road in life.