Post Op
Well, The good news is that I am alive, though quality of life is still a debateable subject.
The surgery went realatively well considering I had a mass the size of a softball pulled out of my abdomen and I now only retain posession of a tenth of my left ovary. In theory it will still work, but my body has never liked to conform to other people's theories. While recovery is going well, I feel rather helpless at times and extremely disconnected to everyone I would like to be spending time with right now. I can't drive or go anywhere by myself because I am so medicated and I hate being a burden on other people, so I don't call anyone and of course no one calls me.
I guess I didn't know how badly I would want to be at the Gathering either. I miss all the camp kids and it would be fun to hang out... no Drake concert for me. I've been lonely before, but I've never felt so pathetic as last night on the phone with Chris. I don't begrudge him his fun, he deserves it....
I start my new internship January 2 in Oak Park. Kindergarden this time, I am SO excited.
275 days and counting
Love and hugs
P.S. I Love You
The surgery went realatively well considering I had a mass the size of a softball pulled out of my abdomen and I now only retain posession of a tenth of my left ovary. In theory it will still work, but my body has never liked to conform to other people's theories. While recovery is going well, I feel rather helpless at times and extremely disconnected to everyone I would like to be spending time with right now. I can't drive or go anywhere by myself because I am so medicated and I hate being a burden on other people, so I don't call anyone and of course no one calls me.
I guess I didn't know how badly I would want to be at the Gathering either. I miss all the camp kids and it would be fun to hang out... no Drake concert for me. I've been lonely before, but I've never felt so pathetic as last night on the phone with Chris. I don't begrudge him his fun, he deserves it....
I start my new internship January 2 in Oak Park. Kindergarden this time, I am SO excited.
275 days and counting
Love and hugs
P.S. I Love You