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Apr 13, 2004 20:51

**If anything that I am saying in this “writing” becomes clear (or un-vague) in anyway during the course of you reading it, please discontinue absorbing my idiocy IMMEDIATELY.

**I am in different moods all the time and I display many different opinions in them. I don’t know what mood I was in while writing this.

**If any of this becomes offensive to you, understand that it was NOT meant to sound that way and take it a different way, please and thank you.

**Reading this will make you stupider. It will also help you realize that I am very stupid, if you don’t already.

**FUCK YOU. Now let’s begin.

Why am I waiting? What am I waiting for? Are things better off this way? Is anyone else waiting? Why do people lie to me? Why did I never learn to share? Do I share and be normal and take what is good or be different and have it only perfect and have nothing? Why do I have to think differently? Should I be smart and miserable and different or normal stupid and content? Is normal the same as stupid? Do normal people question everything? Why do I question everything? What is wrong with me? Am I overlooking something that is truly perfect in all ways?(YES) Why am I ugly? Which is worse: for fun or for the [wrong] one? Why is every human controlled by one sole purpose? Why am I afraid and sickened of being controlled by that same purpose? Do you feel stupider for reading this yet? Why can’t I accept anything at all? Why must I question everything, no matter how wonderful it is? Why do I want to be miserable? Is it hard for everyone (or anyone else) to get used to the world? I’ve lived a lie so many many times before, why can't i do it now? Is sickening pleasure the same as wonderful disregard? Wait for later just in case or go for now and destroy a [not very] possible (not in anyway hopeful) someone else?
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