::sigh::
Well I went to The DePalma's house around 12:30. We sat around and watched poker for a while, then practiced. I finished up one of the songs I was learning, and next practice I think Im learning a new one, and Im glad because I like it soo much!!!! its sound is really unique. After that we went upstairs, and played poker. Well actually I watched Josh Lose to Ben in Poker. Ben's poker face = plastic bag. HAHA. Josh left around 2:30... ugggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! AKWARD! I was left with Aaron and Ben.... So I was upstairs and it was really really tense so I went down stairs and played guitar for an hour. Came back upstairs and watched a movie... with aaron... akward. Umm then someone called for Aaron so he went and talked on the phone. Around 4:40 Josh came back and I got my stuff together and left. We got to my house and Josh tried to comfort me... it kinda helped...? What i really need to do is go out for a walk to the woods or down the railroad tracks... that sounds soo relaxing but I doubt my mom will let me, seeing as its getting dark... maybe I'll walk around the subdivision... but its not the same because its on a road. The road to me symbolizes structure, you know where you are going and where you're at, no wondering. Walking in the woods is like out where no one sees you theres no set path nothing... just milling around thinking... i need that... but I doubt I can go... uggh... now Im just sad but to the point of silence... I dont want to talk really... Im losing my voice.. If I Loose it by tomorrow it might be nice so I don't have to talk to anyone... but I'll totally BS everyone and go be alone... being around everyone... just thinking about it makes me have anxiety attacks... ugggh.... =( I am soo stressed.
~nancy~
~nancy~