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Isn't it funny how when you love someone know matter how much they ripe you apart inside and make you feel shitty how you never stop loveing them... thats how i feel right now.. I love holly so fucking much but she doesn't want a realasionship with ME right now.. she wants to meet new people. We're problie not ganna go back out and i don't know how to handle that i'm kinda in shock right now..
Just the thought of her with someone else makes me sick.. i can't beleive that i did this.. FUCK i want to just brake everything..i hate this feeling.. i don't think its ganna go away soon.. i can't sleep or eat.. GOD WHAT DO I DO.. I FEEL LIKE NO ONE CAN HELP ME OR TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY.. I LOVE HOLLY SO MUCH AND I JUST KEEP SAYING THAT TO MYSELF.. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER.. I KNOW I SOUND OBSESSED(CAN'T SPELL) BUT ISN'T THAT WHAT LOVE IS WHEN YOUR OBSSESED BUT NOT OVERLY OBSSESED TO THE POINT WERE YOU LIKE KNOW WERE THEY ARE AT ALL TIMES.. AND ITS NOT JUST HOLLY I'M REALLY LOSEING ITS ALSO HER FAMILY I LOVE HER FAMILY THERE SO AWESOME.. Rob is so funny and her mom and dad if it wasn't for them i would have my permit..there so great.. and then Holly... i really fucked up i throw away the greatest thing in the world.. if i wouldn't have broke up with her in the first place non of this would have ever happened and i would still be with her problie happier then ever... i can't say anything to her to make her come back and i don't know what to do..
I'm drowning in my sleep
Just the thought of her with someone else makes me sick.. i can't beleive that i did this.. FUCK i want to just brake everything..i hate this feeling.. i don't think its ganna go away soon.. i can't sleep or eat.. GOD WHAT DO I DO.. I FEEL LIKE NO ONE CAN HELP ME OR TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY.. I LOVE HOLLY SO MUCH AND I JUST KEEP SAYING THAT TO MYSELF.. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER.. I KNOW I SOUND OBSESSED(CAN'T SPELL) BUT ISN'T THAT WHAT LOVE IS WHEN YOUR OBSSESED BUT NOT OVERLY OBSSESED TO THE POINT WERE YOU LIKE KNOW WERE THEY ARE AT ALL TIMES.. AND ITS NOT JUST HOLLY I'M REALLY LOSEING ITS ALSO HER FAMILY I LOVE HER FAMILY THERE SO AWESOME.. Rob is so funny and her mom and dad if it wasn't for them i would have my permit..there so great.. and then Holly... i really fucked up i throw away the greatest thing in the world.. if i wouldn't have broke up with her in the first place non of this would have ever happened and i would still be with her problie happier then ever... i can't say anything to her to make her come back and i don't know what to do..
I'm drowning in my sleep