hurting
just felt like i should update and get something off my chest.... i have a old friend that ive dated on and off and finally things got to work out were i though we could be together. everything was fine. she loved me... she said that shes loved me for two years. and ever since oiur first kiss and what not. then the old boyfirend has come back into the picture. someone i kno and strongly dislike. well she said that she didnt want to fuck things us with me and she wanted him to go away. well i havent talked to her in a few weeks and i read her blog and shes confessing her love for him. well that was the salt on the wounds. while i was at the gator game i was walking back and thinking about her. i realized that my ideal women was her. then i put a smile on my face, cause i knew that i really loved her. and after going to a physic and have her tell me that she was my soul mate, i was some what satasfied. i just wanted to see her. then i get back and see hes ahead of me in the top 8 and i read that blog. then i knew it was over. i dont know where my fate lies now. all i can do is get over it and try to move on. the good news is in janurary i will be going to full sail. and i cant get away from here and all the pain that ive caused my self. i really would like to here somthing from her something honest just... just because. and thats all i have to say.