something you didnt know
its funny how when you freak out over things the stupidier you become. heres the deal: my bigest fear is living my whole alone and dying with out a significant other. i kno it sounds stupid but if you know me and my secuss with women ud understand my concern. this entry dont dont plan to whine like ive been doing im just trying to explain my self. i am a man who has never had sucess with any women, u can look at my track record, it wont lie. but everytime i lose someone i truely care for i freak out because it just demastrates how lickly my great fear coming true... one thing i dont like about my self is that when i try to write out how i feel it all sounds the same and it makes me sound whiny. i have been trying to fix that but it isnt really working to much.. when i write stuff like that, im not loking for pitty or sympathy, or attention. i write to express how i feel and trying to ease my pain. i will amit that when i get this way i do feel alone and that i have no one to talk to so i look for some to tell me that things will be ok. hipicritical? possibly. but it helps. but i am trying to fix my self and better my self as a person. so i just thought id would explain my self a bit to night and im sorry if my shit got old.