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Maybe one Day?
Maybe one day it will be all better
Maybe one day the laborious life I live will change
Maybe one day?
But for now I must endure this hell
Each day as pointless as the one proceeding it
Just as the one to follow
I must go through the steps
Pretending to care, so that no one will worry
Although it was not always that way
The visage I originally put up, has become me
At first I pretended that that nothing mattered to me
That show was only meant to hide my desire to fit in
Of course, as it would go my little act has become reality.
Before I knew it I had lost all faith in humanity
I had lost my old self
Only to be replaced by the new me
A death incarnate always questioning the point life
Now I am outside the world
I watch them as they scurry about
I mock as they fall, and snicker as they try to get up only to fall again
I have grown adept to my surroundings
Now I see things for what they really are
Maybe one day I will find the end
Maybe one day everything will be different
Maybe one day?
Of course as fate would have it
I find myself putting up a new visage
This is my current act the one I mentioned before
This is where I pretend to care
And I play the part pretty damn well
Most people truly believe I am happy
Most people don’t know the truth, nor will the ever
The problem is when I started this role
I thought it would become reality
I thought act happy, and then you will be happy
But no; life is not hat simple
I have barricaded myself in theses walls
Now I am shielded from the world
But in truth all I have done is caged myself in
Now that I realize this, I try to break free
Each attempt as fruitless as its predecessor
I have become trap
The real me is hidden from the world
Even I cannot grasp the concept that is myself
Maybe one day I will find myself
Maybe one day I will be freed
Maybe one day?