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Ok so at 4:56 am, I receive a phone call. My dad's younger brother passed away. He went sometime last night. He had trouble breathing then was gone, we are still waiting on details.
In the past few years this side of the family has lost my dad, my grandma and my uncle. I have one uncle and an aunt remaining.
I feel really bad for my uncle as he has had to see his wife pass as well, and that was like 6 years ago today. So I would better he is having a really rough time.
I am not really upset right now, just kind of mildly shocked. He wasn't all that old (50's), but he has had a large history of health issues, including a stroke and diabetes. He was mostly blind and largely immobile. He used to ride his lawn mower to his favorite restaurant down some of the most dangerous streets in town... and he couldn't really see.
At my grandmother's funeral he very plainly said "I don't have much time left". And he didn't.
We weren't really close, for the most part, with that side of the family I am pretty distant, except for my now one remaining uncle on that side of the family.
Strangely, yesterday I was thinking of how many deaths I have seen in my nearly 28 years, and some that came before. I have lost quite a few people. I am not going to count, but I think I may have come close to averaging a funeral a year.
Sadly, one of the thoughts going through my head is that I really hope the funeral isn't Monday, as I don't want that day permanently linked to my birthday in my mind.
Not so sure that I am going to work today.
In the past few years this side of the family has lost my dad, my grandma and my uncle. I have one uncle and an aunt remaining.
I feel really bad for my uncle as he has had to see his wife pass as well, and that was like 6 years ago today. So I would better he is having a really rough time.
I am not really upset right now, just kind of mildly shocked. He wasn't all that old (50's), but he has had a large history of health issues, including a stroke and diabetes. He was mostly blind and largely immobile. He used to ride his lawn mower to his favorite restaurant down some of the most dangerous streets in town... and he couldn't really see.
At my grandmother's funeral he very plainly said "I don't have much time left". And he didn't.
We weren't really close, for the most part, with that side of the family I am pretty distant, except for my now one remaining uncle on that side of the family.
Strangely, yesterday I was thinking of how many deaths I have seen in my nearly 28 years, and some that came before. I have lost quite a few people. I am not going to count, but I think I may have come close to averaging a funeral a year.
Sadly, one of the thoughts going through my head is that I really hope the funeral isn't Monday, as I don't want that day permanently linked to my birthday in my mind.
Not so sure that I am going to work today.