the jonas brothers really do sing rather well.
I didn't want to post and somehow make this all real but I think I have to.
I lied. A really really bad lie. Which I know I can fix but I don't know how I'll be able to do it.
And I'm scared...I shouldn't have lied.
Damn. I am a wuss. I always write out something for you and I always erase it.
Damn.
Anyways, my heart is fine. EKG=normal. Ultrasound=normal.
Put on monitoring for 24 hours. Woot!
So hard to use the restroom with this thing. Seriously. So annoying. But it's all worth it right?=]
Yeah. There was this mother with a down syndrome child. And I started to cry. Here I am, 17 years old, been through life crying cause I'm scared of dying and there's this brave brave mother never knowing how her son feels or if he'll live to see 17...
He doesn't have enough and I have so much.
I felt so horrible feeling sorry for myself. I vowed in that instant to not waste time and to stop feeling like the end of the world.
Jesse told me I was a very serious person. Maybe that's where all my problems lie. This horrible seriousness.
"But he's so...serious..."
Such a famous line.
And yet, as I write this all out, I still love you. Your forever on my mind.
adri♥