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So there is a battle on again in game. I dont know how i get myself into these things. I really just wanted to tell everyone what was going on. And I get bashed. Then pissed, and bash others, and then everything is always my fault. ARGH!!!! Sometimes it pisses me off. Sometimes i have fun doing it. Today i am sick...so Im in between. I am having fun playing her like this cause well she is sleep deprived and just doesnt care anymore. But Im worried about how some players will react and if they will take it out of game. Which i hate. It has nothing to do with me. Its my character. And why do people get so mad when one plays her character like she should be played? I guess i do get a little angry that harley's character is never on Ilse's side. Especially how like Steve always sides with Nyphestra. And how harley always knows what to say to get me going. But I realize its mostly his character. Just wish i had more power on my side.. .Wish the whole world of Theesh didnt hate Ilse. She only has Cirden. And she cant even say much to her about things cause they never have time to talk. ARGH!Ilse was going to leave while in the forest...She was waiting for night to fall. And bam we get sucked into this damn world thats making her nuts. HATE IT! I so hate this world. Ilse knows that shes going to have to kill giants and she hates it. Or shes going to have to side with the Blue that is probably Nuimor which she will really hate. And finally fine out that Cirden liked Nuimor which will make Ilse totally snap. I mean look out nutcases here comes the real nut. Argh just sucks. And we wont be there tonight which means that notes will be passed and everyone will complain about Ilse (and me) behind my back. At least i wont be there to see the notes being passed. Its just so damn childish. Its just my character and just a game. Why do i love my character so, when everyone else hates her. Why cant we all just get along... why cant they even try to see who Ilse is. ARGH! Ok .. i guess i am pissy. I think ill just crawl under the bed and try to breath....